Spitzer's Word

Simple Pleasures

2012-02-18T08:26:00.000-08:00

Nothing like the simple pleasures of humor and laughter.

Simple Pleasures

2/17/12

Birthday comes around

bringing celebration

thoughts,

toying with large

group wild

extravaganza,

or leisurely day

doing nothing

much

except what comes

naturally promising

joy,

most likely alone

following soul

rhythms

and authentic tendency

to create

something

significant, or not,

celebrating Life,

myself,

through experiences fondly

remembered in

future

as simple pleasures.

Directed

2012-02-17T05:12:00.001-08:00

High hill overlook off of Route 35 between Pacific ocean and SF bay.

(photo by Ilyse Streim)

Directed

2/16/12

Ego's real work

is to

and recognize magic,

miracles, divinity,

beauty,

throughout mundane activities

making up

day,

this life with

all it's

circumstances,

while looking to

help others

out

doing the same,

continually remembering

interconnection

with Source filled

plants, animals,

Existence,

physical core nature

individually Soul

directed.

Greetings

2012-02-16T06:25:00.001-08:00

Wing fast asleep on her pillow, on my bed, relaxed by early morning wood stove heat.

Greetings

2/15/12

Met this morning

by wind,

stars,

cool weather that

exhilarates my

Soul

after alarm clock

awakened at

4 am.,

and 'Bryon Kitty'

sat on

chest

licking hand that

lovingly pet

him,

now remembering Wing

through years

past,

stroking her while

asleep on

pillow

when still too

early for

any

reciprocation of greetings.

Love

2012-02-15T04:27:00.002-08:00

My Mom and I hugging with Little Wing to the side.

Love

2/14/12

Potent mysterious elixir

powers Creation's

magnificence,

welling up inside

resilient expanding

heart

as authentic response

to beauty

witnessed,

a sunset's rainbow

above eastern

ridges

while twenty birds

glisten silver

white

bathed in last

rays against

rainclouds,

it's energy dispersed

through hands,

arms,

hugging parent, child,

sibling, friend,

partner,

or pet with

gratitude, called

love.

In Every Head

2012-02-14T04:55:00.002-08:00

A few of the many folks who celebrated Christmas at Pennyghael Community Hall in 2006.

Isle of Mull, Scotland

In Every Head

2/13/12

There's a world

within people's

minds,

verily an encyclopedia

of informational

stories,

strung loosely together

dependent on

memory,

those random threads

linking synapse

together,

becoming likes, dislikes,

judgments, interpretations,

representations,

while building strategic

worldview upon

thoughts,

wherein each person

declares different

rightness

because life manufactures

uniquely diverse

'truth'

in every head.

Keep After

2012-02-12T04:29:00.001-08:00

Keeping after a project at the house.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Keep After

2/11/12

Everyone juggles life,

changing circumstance,

crisis,

in different ways

depending one's

standing,

anchored as Soul

having physical

experience

or small self

of ego

control,

former is gracefully

cordial when

navigating,

latter frequently pushy

disregarding obtuse

repercussions,

most people perform

somewhere in

between,

I do also

when addressing

issues

deemed important to

keep after.

Becomes Known

2012-02-11T05:05:00.000-08:00

Old abandoned boat on Loch Scridain shore outside of Kinloch Hotel.

Isle of Mull, Scotland

Becomes Known

2/10/12

Truth arrives sporadically,

lasts for

awhile

then mysteriously dissolves

as circumstances

change,

or is forgotten,

to acquire

again,

differently if of

lasting universal

nature,

this dance continues

through original

moments,

where as conduits

living Spirit

created,

whether old, young,

muddied, or

pure,

life brings opportunities

for furthering

evolution

whenever soul embrace

becomes known.

Visit

2012-02-10T04:41:00.000-08:00

"Bryron Kitty' visiting 'Little Wing's' burial site while in progress.

Visit

2/9/12

Never

the same twice,

as older

person

experiencing city again,

meeting niece,

partner,

for theater play

seen before

elsewhere,

everything has changed

in world

awakening

to sun today,

circumstances of

importance

around work, relationship,

pets still

here,

or gone, often

disruptive, mercifully

end,

allowing a new

peace to

visit.

Ego Follows

2012-02-09T07:55:00.001-08:00

Winding road in the Lake Country near Patterdale, England.

Ego Follows

2/8/12

Eventually there's trust

of Soul

to gracefully direct

daily trajectory

as a mystic

in touch

with grand landscape

interconnection between

all life's territories,

ably sensing

path leading onward

through 'maya'

that's physical world

demanding attention

from chief navigator

who commands

nobly as author,

setting tone,

timing, intention, pace,

into Unknown

while smiling unabashedly,

whistling tune

on great adventure

toward future,

wherein ultimate service

ego follows.

Visions

2012-02-08T05:10:00.000-08:00

Sunset view from beginning of Ross of Mull, and Loch Scridian, on my way home to Kintra,

Isle of Mull, Scotland

Visions

2/7/12

There are moments,

frequent nowadays,

as if assisted

by Wing,

spirits behind veil,

my ancestors,

father, and grandparents,

guardian angel,

who open gateways

for genius

to be activated,

co-creatively dancing

with inspiration's arrival

from ethers

when giving thought

toward possibilities

percolating in soul,

around anything

calling from future,

riding past,

into potent present,

landing prophetically

while shouting 'Yes!',

thankfully amazed

at catalyzing visions.

From Inside Out

2012-02-07T04:37:00.000-08:00

Michael Rueshcer helping me out with gardening.

(photo by Karin Ruescher)

From Inside Out

2/6/12

Exposure to society,

meeting people,

new and old

friends, acquaintances,

ignites mysterious inspiration

as fuel

for creative process,

something said

poignantly by another,

witnessing activism

through art, community,

encountering kindness,

love and compassion,

stirs heart

which reflects favorable

human potential

to evolve, or

go down

singing and dancing,

believing transformative

redemption is possible,

forever probable,

when individual souls

share gifts

from inside out.

Many Firsts

2012-02-05T04:33:00.000-08:00

At my 50th birthday party near 8 years ago.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Many Firsts

2/4/12

Called 'primary experiences'

by girlfriend

in past relationship,

I'm experiencing

them in quantity

these days,

open mic performance,

contact improv

and shamanic disco,

writing workshop,

meeting loved filled

original humans

embodying 'Great Turning'

spirit journey

within physical world,

expressing joy,

humor, compassionate acceptance,

on river

awakening to ocean

of enlightenment

inherently in us,

sharing Divinity

as One People,

One Planet,

delivering many firsts.

To Be Human

2012-02-04T08:21:00.000-08:00

Wonderful group of loving folks who so generously helped me out as visitor from abroad.

Kintra Community Hall, Isle of Mull, Scotland

To Be Human

2/3/12

I'm inspired

by those who

help others

out of goodness

in heart

expecting no reward

except enjoyable

feeling giving brings,

contrary to those

who take

as though entitled

barely considering

plight of downtrodden,

or musing about

shared world

and impact possible

if people

would 'get over'

me, mine,

separation by embracing

we, us,

distributing resources fairly

demonstrating how

to be human.

Open Connection

2012-02-03T04:38:00.000-08:00

My girl Wing was always happiest when out exploring in Nature.

Open Connection

2/2/12

No matter circumstance,

financial loss,

gain,

future work looking

steady or

sporadic,

death having come

to loved

one

which simultaneously creates

opportunity for

birth,

thrown off center

by humanity's

madness

then finding it

again in

Nature,

staying curious about

miracles permeating

life

allows loving souls

magical arrival

through

Divine open connection.

For Future

2012-02-02T05:26:00.000-08:00

Shaved head, altered state, after completing Wing's memorial.

For Future

2/1/12

Having fun

reframing experiences

initially thought

un-wantingly bad

to perfectly

timed event

supporting evolutionary

'what's next'

that builds

motivational momentum,

renews resources,

ushers wisdom,

makes space,

breaks open

mind, heart,

soul perceptions,

assists conscious

deep recognition

of Divinity's

pure essence

pouring through

every atom

as catalyst

and vehicle

for future.

Grand Game

2012-02-01T04:36:00.001-08:00

Where's Wing hiding? Under the heart stone, yet always found in my heart.

Grand Game

1/31/11

Hide and seek,

neighborhood fun

growing

up suburban kids

in Speedway

Indiana,

nowadays feels similar

excitedly engaging

myself

as one searching

to find

Divinity

everywhere, in everyone,

no matter

appearances

or dysfunctional behaviors,

while unabashedly

grinning

with contagious love

that tags

another,

and elicits smile,

from participant

playing

'grand game'.

Affirmed

2012-01-31T04:53:00.000-08:00

Driving down the road with Wing, my amazingly inspirational, 'love activism' teacher.

Affirmed

1/30/12

Past week events

further engrain

understanding

foundational life purpose

as 'Love

Activist',

utilizing 'Soul Authority'

passion for

changes

playing essential part

in Great

Turning,

standing on shoulders

of courageous

ancestors

I become one

for future

inheritors,

invigorating magnificent world

through simple

acts

my existence affirmed.

New Chapters

2012-01-29T04:17:00.000-08:00

Wing and I next to Santa Cruz Yacht Harbor Lighthouse.

(photo by Crysse Morrison)

New Chapters

1/28/12

Another

poetry book

has been filled,

ending

with loving

thoughts of Wing,

companion

who chose

me as partner,

wherein

I became

forever blessed recipient,

circulating

love that

opened protected heart,

caring

for her

amid changing pursuits,

surprise

events turning

into new chapters.

Not Gone

2012-01-28T05:53:00.000-08:00

Wing and I driving down the road in the van either coming or going to work.

Not Gone

1/27/12

My habitual programming

finds me

speaking to Wing,

calling her,

'Let's go girl!'

into truck

on job site,

easily seeing

different remembered stages

from puppy

to 'old woman',

my hand

familiar with petting

while driving,

strokes heart area

pressed upon

by 'Little One'

for many years

riding together ...

she's not gone.

Collected

2012-01-27T04:47:00.000-08:00

Wing and I kayaking Castle Lake near Mt. Shasta, California.

(photo by Raven Stevens)

Collected

1/26/12

I'm traveling memory

mind's eye

through brain matter,

computer pictures,

and film photos,

awe filled,

amazed at distance

we travelled,

longest love relationship

of partnership,

greatest, best friend,

accepting, unconditional,

near constant companion

paying attention

to each other,

always allowing

for unexpected turns

becoming gift

experiences gratefully collected.

Tears

2012-01-26T04:41:00.000-08:00

The 'little charger' Wing at Seabright Beach, Santa Cruz, California.

Tears

1/25/12

Cleansing memory bank

forgotten events,

so many moments

turned years

of being together,

playful days

in rambunctious youth,

her agility

running, jumping, hunting,

pretend fighting,

always the charger

out front

prancing, smiling, enthusiastic,

patiently waiting

for workday end,

adventure ready

to go anywhere ...

remembrance brings

tears revealing joy.

Transported

2012-01-25T04:55:00.000-08:00

Wing's Wheel, with her bowl and heart shaped rock at center.

Transported

1/24/12

Behind the veil

I entered

while ushering my

'Little Wing'

into Spirit World,

where Nature

came fully alive,

awake, present,

witnessed, listened, felt

honoring ceremony,

taking in words,

love feelings,

holding us both

with benevolence

completing Life dance,

gifting rainbows,

beauty, miraculous Existence

became doorway

to continued communion

mystically transported.

Life In Service

2012-01-24T04:14:00.000-08:00

My female 'Little Wing' dog four days prior to passing into the spirit world.

Life In Service

1/23/12

My 'Wing' dog

has completed

near fourteen years

bringing love

into my heart,

this world,

everyone she's met,

now time

for courageous act

as reciprocation

of unconditional caring,

releasing her

homeward to Source

to continue

being constant companion,

our souls

linked forever there

cherishing shared

Life in service.

Rain

2012-01-22T04:31:00.000-08:00

My spirit also soars for rainbows that often accompany rain.

(Kintra, Isle of Mull, Scotland)

Rain

1/21/12

My spirit soars,

body thrills

during acclimate weather,

listening sounds

of wind, water,

envelope house,

remembering childhood experiences

of watching

through home windows,

school bus,

loving outside smells,

excited feelings

creating great adventure,

dressing differently,

given warnings, instructions

depicting danger,

for me

just playful rain.

For Myself

2012-01-21T04:52:00.000-08:00

Playing with professional musicians Marc Bass, Peter Clark, at my 50th b-day party, 2004.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

For Myself

1/20/12

When rains halt

usual work

for almighty dollar,

then possibilities

avalanche upon me,

including pleasure,

chores, vehicle maintenance,

exercise, desires

like lengthy writing,

workshop creations,

editing in den,

dreaming future,

or playing music,

myriad activities

no longer neglected

for myself.

Exercise

2012-01-20T06:33:00.000-08:00

Past exercise canoeing on lake in Watsonville with my girl 'Wing'.

Exercise

1/19/12

I forget

the pure pleasurable

addictive nature

of body activity

outside norm

from physical work,

for fun,

and staying healthy,

while enhancing

clarity of mind,

brightening spirit,

energizing new equilibrium

inside skin,

muscle, aligning bones,

whether running,

dance, sports, walking,

exercise enlivens.

Click

2012-01-19T04:39:00.000-08:00

With dead trees down a new view opens that seemingly catapults me into 'parallel universe'.

Click

1/18/12

Oftentimes

clarity eludes me,

arriving

somewhere I feel

misaligned,

out of place,

imagining

destined parallel universe

awaiting

behind different choice

offering

authentic soul experience

needed

to further growth,

synchronicity,

meeting person, having

conversation

bringing realizations that

click.

Timing

2012-01-18T05:38:00.000-08:00

When ready, I found perfect logger to fell quagmire of dead trees.

Timing

1/17/12

On this

follow through depends,

have come

to understand procrastination

that's different

than habitual avoidance,

delay instead,

waiting for resources,

information, impetus,

and catalyzing grace

catapulting energy,

vision, enthusiasm, joy,

past mediocre

advance when misaligned,

blindly inattentive

to sacred timing.

Calibration

2012-01-17T04:50:00.000-08:00

Reverend Deborah L. Johnson interviewed on KZSC radio show, 'Conciliation Sunday'.

At Inner Light Ministries service she spoke of 'inner calibration to future calling.'

Calibration

1/16/12

In timeline society

pursuing goals

with action steps,

accountability, determination,

to accelerate progress

there's phenomenon

beyond manipulative paradigm,

potently seeded

within invisible realms

where energies

swirl inside people

as dreams

beckoning from future,

mysteriously incubated

for however long

individually necessary

until day arrives

birthing 'Yes!'

completing evolutionary calibration.

Recover

2012-01-16T04:42:00.000-08:00

Consuming crab legs before seeing Oakland 'Cavalia' show years ago.

Recover

1/15/12

In hindsight,

worth of endeavor,

that breaks

from routine structure

in place

to manifest desires,

is measured

not only by

episodic quality

of original experience,

resources consumed,

urge to repeat

with person

as intimate activity,

but also

weighs residual benefit

accrued and

time to recover.

Truthfully

2012-01-15T04:17:00.000-08:00

2004 motorcycle trip in Scotland celebrating my 50th birthday.

Truthfully

1/14/12

When attended

then freedom rings,

holding fast

to authentic Soul

fulfilling destiny

by walking unencumbered

no matter

circumstances that surround,

generously administering

talents as succor

while Life

organically plays out,

my dutiful

sacred responsibility is

honoring Source

through living truthfully.

Space

2012-01-14T19:04:00.000-08:00

Watching big sky turn colors at sunset over Lighthouse Field, Santa Cruz, California

Space

1/13/12

Leaving it open

especially

when unsure

allows more information

entering

to point way

sensed

as destiny,

where synchronistic alignment

congeals

benevolent outcome

in mind's eye

translated

as 'Yes!',

similarly for love

loosely

holding potential

waiting patiently in

space.

Instruction

2012-01-13T04:27:00.000-08:00

No instructions for placing third story on rebuilt lower framework of old water tower.

Lakeside Organic Farm, Watsonville, California

Instruction

1/12/12

Many pursuits

require

information gleaned beforehand

by those

experienced

with acquiring goal,

hopefully making

success

quicker, easier, safer,

without having

work

of recreating wheel,

other times

life

traverses virgin territory,

always really,

wherein

each day arrives

with only

inner

guidance as instruction.

Beautiful Behavior

2012-01-12T04:19:00.000-08:00

Rounding first base after getting a hit playing softball.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

(poem inspired by Rachel Carlton Abrams, MD)

Beautiful Behavior

1/11/12

New doctor

used this phrase

describing

encouraged shift

around diet, exercise,

lowering

cholesterol, sugars,

finding balance using

moderation

as key

to optimal health,

chuckling

I imagined

world doing same,

humans

changing consumptive,

warring habits, creating

heaven

on earth

through beautiful behavior.

Territories

2012-01-11T04:13:00.000-08:00

Lone sentinel among cliffs at Bryce Canyon, Utah.

Territories

1/10/12

Surrounded

I sit,

listen soul intuition,

where,

what, will

receive attentive energy

after

morning ritual

pleasing writing muse,

blessed

by choices

to exercise creativity

I'm

calmly aware

of whirlwind possibilities

this

day brings

in myriad territories.

Everyday

2012-01-10T08:05:00.000-08:00

In my workshop from earlier days and arrangement.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Everyday

1/9/12

She's demanding

mistress,

always with me

as muse

wanting

expression for pleasure,

hearing

her call,

above society's din,

constantly

desiring attention

I finally relinquish,

declare

unswerving loyalty

above all else

everyday.

Essence

2012-01-09T05:46:00.000-08:00

Sunset during ferry ride between Isle of Skye and the Scottish mainland.

Essence

1/8/12

Stop,

be still,

quit searching,

it's here,

everywhere,

always been,

will be,

permeating everything,

breathe,

witness Existence,

humming vibration,

making you,

me,

Earth, Sun,

trees, animals,

uniquely from

Essence.

Circles

2012-01-08T04:13:00.000-08:00

Two eagles on the wing above the Isle of Mull, Scotland.

Circles

1/7/12

No corners

to turn at

as I

spiral like eagle

on wings

buoyed by Spirit,

riding currents

absent cutting edge,

eyes view

far-reaching vistas devoid

of separation,

upon ground

I'm galloping horse

stretching powerful

muscles in coordination,

propelled onward

sweating, steaming, snorting,

dreaming horizons

outside of circles.

Enter

2012-01-07T08:17:00.000-08:00

Beach cave in San Diego area.

Enter

1/6/12

Sudden breakdowns

bring original opportunity

within context

to use tools

gathered up

from past tribulations,

whether communication,

truck not starting,

dropping ball

on follow through,

or animal

injured, getting old,

new world

quickly shows itself,

often irrevocably

if it's death,

life always

tests our willingness

to enter.

There's Little Rhyme

2012-01-06T05:35:00.000-08:00

Wednesday sunset from patio of house I've been working on.

Santa Cruz Lighthouse, Santa Cruz, California

There's Little Rhyme

1/5/12

Less reason

for what transpires

each season,

or any day

we live,

love, work, play,

generously give,

Life rolls on

so unencumbered

as miraculous phenomenon

breaths numbered,

to change anything

first accept

all that's happening

even death,

then when clear

dispel lie

in Existence there's

little rhyme.

No Separation

2012-01-03T05:08:00.000-08:00

Less cluttered past, that led to now, leading to future, without separation in 'infinite time'.

No Separation

1/2/12

Doing mundane things

like laundry,

groceries,

cooking good meals,

getting rest,

exercise,

working on land,

in shop

organizing,

and at desk

writing bills,

donations,

caring for animals,

loving them,

Life,

are essential aspects

of creativity

laying

the holistic groundwork

of no

separation.

In There

2012-01-02T05:47:00.000-08:00

Meeting writer friend Geoffory Dunn, wife, & son at Seabright Beach, Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

In There

1/1/12

Coming through

fits, starts, malaise,

wondering how,

when, I'll escape

difficult tests

being with discomforting

inner struggle

until finding again

an opening

where grace dwells,

or expressing

what's bothering me

to stranger,

old, new friend,

that reminds

me of 'connection'

as Power

for embodied Soul

in there.

Surprisingly

2012-01-01T04:26:00.000-08:00

A surprising rainbow outside my wee croft with my amazing 1991 BMW K75RT motorcycle.

Kintra, Isle of Mull, Scotland

Surprisingly

12/30/11

It fascinates me

when grace

descends

tapping with insight,

intuition, direction,

foresight,

my squirreled brain,

as body

affirms

to follow through

on uncertain

hunch,

wherein alignment flows,

synchronicity easily

happens,

appointments open up,

opportunities avail

surprisingly.

The Switch

2011-12-30T05:30:00.000-08:00

The potent moment switching from standing still to opening the throttle.

(photo by Crysse Morrison)

The Switch

12/29/11

Looking

to flip

it,

finally

leave my

conundrums,

fully

engage what's

next,

simply

with passionate

pursuit,

harnessing

horse energy

daily,

from

standing to

gallop,

making

the switch.

Witnessing

2011-12-29T04:48:00.000-08:00

Self=portrait driving back from southern California with a truck load of workshop machinery.

Witnessing

12/28/11

My antics

would be humorous

if not

taken so seriously

by Perfectionist

often at wheel

measuring degree

of right, wrong,

as Judge

defining highest worth

to pursuits

purporting significant importance,

thankfully Soul

sees larger picture,

says 'Relax,

forever busy egoistic

'monkey mind',

continue witnessing miracles.'

After

2011-12-28T05:09:00.000-08:00

Floating in Monterey Bay at Seabright Beach in Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

After

12/27/11

Once

festivities end

things settle down,

recalibration

of body,

mind, spirit, emotions,

re-aims

toward purpose,

direction, vitality, integrity,

strengthened

by connective

family, friends, community,

again

finding balance

within Life immersion,

floating,

swimming, surfing,

diving deep beneath,

after.

Assist

2011-12-25T04:32:00.000-08:00

Assisting angels, Mimi and Melody, at Floyd's 90th birthday celebration.

Assist

12/24/11

Each

plays part

in Great Turning,

according

personal timetable

and revolutions inside,

without

comparing ourselves

envious of others,

this

is music

on grand scale,

vibrations

ripple outward

large and small,

bearing

unique quality

we assist others

Accountability

2011-12-24T05:05:00.000-08:00

The Buddha statue in the flower garden inspired by my buddy Art Durand.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Accountability

12/23/11

In end

my biggest relationship

is not

lover, partner, family,

some other,

but with Life,

Source Energy,

this miraculous Existence

as Soul

sharing Infinite Is-ness,

without separation,

guiding inhabited ego

in world

through mind, body,

and emotions,

to be servant

creating results

becoming proven accountability.

It Flows

2011-12-23T06:02:00.000-08:00

Seabright Beach, Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

It Flows

12/22/11

Then, when

all is ready,

preparations made,

plenty of sleep,

right thoughts,

eating proper food,

plus exercise,

requesting through prayer

benevolent outcome,

help from ancestors,

spirits loving,

caring, for people,

committing oneself

on personal path

of Soul

expression this lifetime,

it flows.

Pointing

2011-12-21T05:32:00.000-08:00

Pointing out where I used to live and do things at the end of the ridge.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Pointing

12/20/11

Whether it's

some planetary alignment,

full schedule

not offering opening,

'perfect storm'

of blocking circumstance,

procrastination lessons

to be learned,

Life often

channels toward direction

for Soul

realizations around clarity

and importance,

plus deepest desires

patiently waiting

as future possibilities,

delivering awareness

pointing the way.

Reward

2011-12-20T04:21:00.001-08:00

My Mom who modeled staying busy and being a giver.

At her 88th birthday party.

Reward

12/19/11

I struggle

with concepts around

enjoying life,

being on purpose,

going after

latest farfetched dreams,

while balancing

time spent working

for money,

practicing self care

by relaxing

when feeling urgency

to produce,

take action steps

toward goals,

things needing done,

wanting accomplished,

as own reward.

Permanence

2011-12-18T04:37:00.000-08:00

Design carved on tomb lid of a 12th century Scottish knight. A tattoo?

Isle of Iona, Scotland

Permanence

12/16/11

Few things

have this essence

in world

that's forever changing,

death does,

scars, losing limbs,

body parts,

sometimes broken heart,

or residue

from physical abuse,

as counterpoint

there's love experiences

staying with

giver and receiver,

plus goodness

housed in Soul

like tattoo

carrying Life permanence.

Fluctuations

2011-12-16T04:36:00.001-08:00

Keith, me, goddaughter Adrienne, Zeke, and guide in rapids on Tuolumne River, California.

Fluctuations

12/15/11

The ebb, flow

of energy

I'm always calibrating

affects choices

and the difficulty

following through

with any vision

that entrances

on soul plane

while navigating

thick physical world,

bringing heaven

down to earth

can be

hellish when manifesting

upon river

surging with fluctuations.

Sacrifice

2011-12-15T04:09:00.000-08:00

Arthur Durand III and Corinna Bloom on their wedding day.

Sacrifice

12/14/11

It's surrendering

something highly valued

for another

supremely prized attainment,

letting loose

thoughts of entitled

having everything

all at once,

willingly postponing

or downright losing

some aspect

of Sacred Dream,

while inviting

mysterious uncontrolled circumstance

it's seat

at Destiny's table,

being ready

to be consumed

by Forces

within Life sacrifice.

Important Part

2011-12-14T05:01:00.000-08:00

Stone beach behind Findhorn, with entry to Northern Highlands of Scotland in distance.

Important Part

12/13/11

In this river

of Life

I'm humbly honored

and proud

to join brothers,

sisters, ancestors,

on amazing journey

filled with

love, danger, mystery,

toward ocean

consciousness of Oneness,

Unity, Stewardship,

persevering stagnate eddies,

rapids, waterfalls,

discovering strength, weakness,

turning 'shadows'

into friendly allies

while courageously

playing important part.

Out It

2011-12-10T06:56:00.000-08:00

Lunar eclipse early morning 12/10/11 from my house in Soquel, California.

Out It

12/8/11

Surprising

what comes

when opportunity shows

itself

for speaking

long held words,

thoughts

not consciously

collected as opinion,

belief,

attitude, image,

having formed inside,

yet

once started

brain's amazing synapse

discovers

connective thread

to out it.

Enter

2011-12-09T05:25:00.000-08:00

Spilling myself backwards into Monterey Bay at Seabright Beach in Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Enter

12/6/11

The choice

of how wet

we'll get

in this river,

toe, foot,

leg, lower torso,

full emersion,

and ocean waters,

doesn't matter,

or arrival technique,

speed, grace,

when we realize

decision made

was long ago,

before birth,

to enter life.

The Judge

2011-12-07T05:02:00.000-08:00

At the end of the ridge where I first began living on this amazing land.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

The Judge

12/6/11

Shadow work

has released him

from jail

where barely heard,

often disdained,

I'd go opposite

distant warnings

to prove false

that 'realist'

is 'dreamer's' superior,

Big Mind

says 'Get along.'

while playing

with authentic thoughts,

feelings, actions,

my Soul

has 'him' handcuffed

to Divinity

becoming ally as

'the Judge'.

New Approaches

2011-12-06T05:08:00.000-08:00

'Wing' dog, and 'Byron Kitty' comfortably living a 'new approach'.

New Approaches

12/5/11

Leaving behind

some old ways

of doing

what I've done,

allowing for

original intuitive ideas

to influence

when entering mind,

sparking synapse

creates puzzle pieces

finding place

in emerging mandala,

I witness

same phenomenon unfolding

in world

desperately needing change,

new approaches.

Benevolent Outcomes

2011-12-04T04:22:00.000-08:00

Once the tiptop of a towering redwood, now the severed 60 ft. top laying sideways.

Benevolent Outcomes

12/3/11

This request

is new mantra

opening potential

for what's best,

expanding intention

beyond limited mind

to catalyze

invisible magical realm

of possibilities'

far reaching expanse,

the timeless

'All' encompassing miracle,

unrestrained, unbounded,

connected to Source,

'is-ness, Life,

becoming mysteriously dreamed

benevolent outcomes.

In The Dark

2011-12-02T04:21:00.000-08:00

My debris covered driveway after pulling larger limbs to the side.

In The Dark

12/1/11

Violent winds rip,

debris flying everywhere

all night long

testing branch strength,

rootedness to Earth

as Air whistles,

howls, is locomotive

driving head on

through oak, redwood,

madrone, bay, eucalyptus,

all are effected,

and power lines

with vulnerable wires

easily become disrupted,

severed, leaving us

in the dark.

Clarity

2011-11-30T06:12:00.000-08:00

Harbor near Jack London Square in Oakland, California with San Francisco in distance.

Clarity

11/28/11

I dance

around circumstance,

possibilities, potential,

stardust ideas

blow through,

surface, submerge,

join others

as Mind's

theater performance,

evoking laughter,

curiosity, amazement,

for creative

Life process,

seemingly chaotic,

mundane, uninspired,

until genius

in moment

coagulates clarity.

Little Things

2011-11-27T04:17:00.000-08:00

At the end of the ridge with old tree swing rope hanging from a familiar oak tree.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Little Things

11/26/11

I'm touched

by these,

unlike straw

that breaks

camel's back,

or last

straw turning

someone psycho,

it's small

seeing with

appreciative eyes

which exponentially

magnifies love

for world,

family, friends,

All Creation,

my being-ness,

becoming, what

I've been,

and the

little things.

Gratitude

2011-11-26T05:34:00.001-08:00

Loving life during photo shoot at Seabright Beach in Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Gratitude

11/24/11

For All

I love,

have loved,

will love,

and those

who love,

have loved,

will love

me also,

this Existence,

it's 20

Count Beauty,

my home,

den, shop,

healing land,

plants, animals,

skills, talents

I possess,

vibrant health,

there's gratitude.

Well Rested

2011-11-24T05:50:00.000-08:00

A big early morning yawn in my medicine wheel.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Well Rested

11/23/11

Life's different

when

fully recharged,

enabling

'give away'

energy

during day

focused

on building,

creating

for money,

where

early darkness

plus

cooler temperatures

entice

long bedtime,

awaking

well rested.

Who Leads

2011-11-22T05:23:00.000-08:00

My ex-wife Melody, me, Dylan dog in foreground and Wing dog leading the way.

(photo by Art Durand photography)

Who Leads

11/21/11

Following notions

appearing

in mind,

amid

scrutiny there's

imagining

end game

that

may occur,

listening

I wait,

knowing

alignment comes

inspiring

enjoyable action,

wondering

who leads.

Recharge

2011-11-20T04:34:00.000-08:00

Showering outside in the summer.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Recharge

11/19/11

Colder days,

nights,

early darkness

changes

human behavior,

slows

energy output

though

not mine,

loving

fragrant musky

air

rains bring,

soaking

earth sprouts,

invigorating

outside showers,

fires,

layered bedding,

deep

sleep recharge.

Enjoy

2011-11-19T06:59:00.000-08:00

Exuberant!

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Enjoy

11/18/11

No matter

predicament

or state,

just being

alive

is enough,

imbibing glorious

miracle

through senses,

breathing Life

it is,

everything else

becomes

additional icing

on cake

celebrating

inherently diverse

simple Existence

here

to enjoy.

In Silence

2011-11-17T05:02:00.001-08:00

Blessed to live in the middle of Nature and 'All' of It's 'silence'.

In Silence

11/16/11

Pervading 'All'

underneath the cacophony

that's humanity

consumed by stimuli

bouncing inside

busy talkative minds

hearing chatter

from television, radio,

Ipods, advertisements,

reassuring our ego

of importance,

though drained, stressed,

not regenerating

like Nature does

in silence.

Along The Way

2011-11-15T05:14:00.000-08:00

At Seabright Beach in Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Along The Way

11/14/11

'Is-ness'

happens daily

turning into progress

when

directed toward

ideas, intentions, actions,

amid

unfathomable miracle

all on course

without

belief in

any of it

payment necessary

along the way.

Attend To

2011-11-13T04:23:00.000-08:00

Taking a moment to relax lakeside in Finland.

(photo by TD)

Attend To

11/12/11

Each day

I do this

in my life territories

so vast

filled by events

both mundane and grand

following Guidance

filtered through mind,

body, spirit and emotions

that demand

presence of awareness

plus discernment to choose

what action

will or won't

be taken in moment

while care

for Self leads

as priority I'll knowingly

attend to.

Gods

2011-11-11T05:22:00.000-08:00

A 'surprising' waterfall on the Isle of Mull, Scotland.

Gods

11/10/11

Heard a story

with Mayan origins

about these entities,

Deities of Life,

Death and Chance,

where human beings

on one side

plus 'Holies' opposite

engage this world

both doing parts,

while wild card

'surprise' inhabits middle

like small creek

taking up 2%

of Life course

which creates risk,

nothing for certain,

everything becomes gamble,

practiced divination, to

please the Gods.

Faith and Fear

2011-11-10T05:37:00.000-08:00

Long shadows of photographer Art Durand and myself.

Seabright Beach, Santa Cruz, California

Faith and Fear

11/9/11

Dreamer and Realist

at odds

find the Apex

shared by

Divinity and Ego

as partners

who co-create anew,

shining Light

on disowned Self

reveals Shadow

that follows us,

mimicking gestures

our Dark Side

if denied

can wreak havoc

until integrating

Faith and Fear.

Freedom 'to'

2011-11-08T05:26:00.000-08:00

Artist 'Valerie Joi', is the Minister of Music and Arts for Inner Light Ministries.

Interviewed on 'Conciliation Sunday' for upcoming CD release and fundraising party.

Freedom 'to'

11/7/11

So often it's 'from'

a pain that pushes

with mind focused there,

better to have vision

which pulls us toward

a goal truly worthy

of our 'Higher Self',

beyond constant 'task' mentality

bringing relief when complete

not joy of manifesting

according to Integrity Standards

and Intentions that serve,

matching those Character Qualities

we admire in others

also living within us

because we share vibration,

seeing through our eyes

freedom 'to' be exalted.

Clearing

2011-11-06T04:39:00.000-08:00

One last little clearing downpour.

Clearing

11/5/11

Cycles come around

Summer to Fall,

rains invite growth

clean dusty surfaces

as cold grips

contents of room,

intruding from outside

with sun blocked

by sky culprits

in cloud conspiracy,

fire in wood

is released now

overpowering the chill

that's closed inside,

stories held leave

through open door

of expanding heart

creating clearing space.

Shifting Winds

2011-11-05T07:40:00.000-07:00

Rainbow above Calhoun Canyon from shop roof.

Shifting Winds

11/4/11

Weather change

brings rain on roof,

wood stove crackles

from fire inside,

green sprouts surfacing

in unison,

plastic covers resources

collected, unused,

for projects dreamed

not started,

another year

of sour economy,

confused intentions, distractions,

work lately,

promises money

coinciding with priorities

rearranged, matching

shifting winds.

Ones

2011-11-02T05:37:00.000-07:00

Chinese numerology is covered in Dr. Gary Dolowich's book, 'Archetypal Acupunture'.

Interviewed at KZSC on 'Conciliation Sunday'.

Ones

11/1/11

Adding this date up

turns into five,

'movement' for Chinese,

'Elements' in acupuncture

Wood, Fire, Earth, Metal, Water,

also corresponding seasons

Spring, Summer, Indian Summer,

Autumn, then Winter,

plus archetypes Warrior, Lover,

King, Queen, Sage,

Spitzer's fifth child 'Keith',

digits on hands, feet,

'Sacred Human' in Mayan Twenty Count

where single unit is 'Sun',

eleven, represents 'Stars',

so many creations

each of us

as the 'Ones'.

Ending, Beginning

2011-10-29T09:26:00.001-07:00

Early morning me.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

End, Beginning

10/29/11

Living in a nutshell

this continuous cycle

I'm part and parcel of

forever changing

through

Soul connected Life Force

prevailing each day

in richly diverse pulsating Existence

as omnipotent

Form

which is also me

joined at hip

there's no escaping the miracle

we're in

One

teeming phenomenon so grand

how could anyone

get lost within their 'troubles'

missing blessings

Present

though I can find

melancholy coming around

when something that is valued

turns missing

remembering

ending, beginning.

Enough Already

2011-10-29T08:19:00.000-07:00

My writing den with an overhead shelf full of poetry books I've written since 1980.

Enough Already

10/28/11

There are plenty of books

that contain myriad rambling words

about personal process of introspection,

'contemplating my navel' some say,

plus observations directed at world,

relationships, whether good, bad, between

work, spirituality, Existence, friendship, emotions,

really just a glorified diary

to revisit someday for memories,

and it's been great practice

in energetically clearing inner slate

as an early morning ritual

of gifting myself with time

to appreciate life first, foremost,

doing something I truly love

when being creative while writing,

birthing original 'full circle poems'

most days, exercising 'God' nature

bringing ideas into physical manifestation,

this I'll continue until death

though wanting form to change

while accommodating urge for exploration

penning expression of different types,

short stories, 'educational, philosophical, political'

commentary, finishing novel, editing poetry

with aim toward eventual publication

since I have enough already.

Small Joys

2011-10-27T05:05:00.000-07:00

About to engage a 'small joy' on Southwest motorcycle trip.

Small Joys

10/26/11

I want to make a list

of these, and large ones also,

kept on refrigerator with a magnet

for reminder when feeling off, not

optimal, potent, and virile, more depressed

from some run of negative thinking,

forgetting birthright as unique miraculous being

'no less than moon and stars',

which happens while focused on 'lack',

as result of eccentric, rebellious nature,

my critical judgement mind that rules

in reaction mode whenever I'm disgusted

with 'self', seen from Life mirroring

the 'shadow commitments' creating my reality,

thereby making appreciation of blessings difficult

because comparisons point out hidden expectations

about where, what, I 'should' be

by this age, with accordant wisdom

around all daily human aspects, concerns,

luckily strong ancestral blood courses through

veins as Scottish, Irish, Romanian Jew,

persevering spirit 'with no give up',

or 'in', for long, to melancholy,

instead eventually celebrating gifts it brings

disguised as troubles, later to find

small joys magnified after pendulum swing.

Unenlightened

2011-10-26T04:53:00.000-07:00

A view of Duarte Castle and the stone block of granite it's fortress walls were built upon.

Isle of Mull, Scotland

Unenlightened

10/25/11

Feeling this of late,

opposite past ecstatic times

when thought on path

to higher consciousness nirvana

full of continued exaltation,

again hitting humanness wall

seeing ways I sabotage

by judging myself, others,

this supposedly civilized world,

as old patterns surface

testing for footing friction,

they then seemingly find

ground that again supports

their arguments, views, attitudes,

which once reigned supreme,

perhaps I'm at edge

of some grand breakthrough

percolating from 'shadow' work

around 'integrity, intention, abundance,'

while revisiting childhood history

doing 'exercises' in book

'The Energy of Money',

pointing to behavioral traps

I've been caught in

during past and now,

where freedom is limited

by unenlightened egotistical perspective.

Out Of Step

2011-10-25T05:13:00.000-07:00

Main entry door and steps to Duarte Castle of the MacLean Clan.

Isle of Mull, Scotland

Out Of Step

10/24/11

In last two weeks

a couple accidents remind

how easy it is

to fall from grace,

witnessing a 'failed presence'

because taken for granted

abilities were thrown off,

delivering wake up call

that has me wonder

what's underlying greater message

being pointed my way,

as alternate realities wobble

like a shimmering mirage

of one who's thirsty

for knowing which door

presenting itself will open

with future that coincides,

seeing past ways offered

still available and familiar,

while an original world

beckons from ethereal visions

glimpsed as winsome possibility,

things I'd do if

money wasn't an issue,

or happenstance arrives taking

me out of step.

Work Up To It

2011-10-23T04:12:00.000-07:00

New top story of water tower structure being lifted into place by King Crane.

Lakeside Organic Farms, Watsonville, California

Work Up To It

10/21/11

So much is preparation

when wrapping mind around

what's wanted to happen

with things in place

to accomplish difficult task

whether short, long term,

where resources, tools, knowledge

need to be assembled

while asking pertinent questions

along winding road forward

collecting wisdom left behind

by those fellow travelers

who've made similar journey,

readily giving their expertise

about experience reaping success,

in end each person

lives with decisions made

for better or worse

judged by resulting outcome,

right pace without impatience,

listening small quiet voice,

paying attention gut feelings,

trusting intuition as guide,

minimizing possibilities for error

becomes mantra whenever I

work up to it.

Application

2011-10-21T04:45:00.001-07:00

A creative bed 'headboard' to awaken under.

Application

10/20/11

It's vision

with willingness

for commitment

while daily

moving toward

goal completion

that can

take longer

due to

so many

dreams wanting

physical manifestation

from ethers

where creation

process starts

after awaking

each morning

as human,

being, becoming,

always changing

with circumstances

forever fluid,

often threatening

possible failure,

instilling concerted

application efforts.

Make It Land

2011-10-20T04:53:00.000-07:00

Trying to 'land' some sentiments while singing at my 50th birthday bash.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Make It Land

10/19/11

Heard this concept during radio interview

of woman who wrote amazing book

about 'easy steps to acting craft'

saying the 'British love words'

where elocution becomes languidly rich pronunciation

that enters theatrical, musical, heavenly realms

as consumable gustatory expression finding home

on Earth through ears of audience,

delivered with unique breath, adding color,

depth, realism, drawing on operatic power

of such 'presence' that it startles,

invites, verily sucks in the observer

to become engaged by feelings intricately

connected with what is being said,

distinctively utilizing perfect pace, inflection, volume,

for situation so 'real', communication happens,

people 'get' one another, deeply, wholeheartedly,

transmitting true meaning from core origins

creating atmosphere that's rarely fully imbibed

in mad world stumbling over itself,

often harried, hurried, while hurdling toward

future without total embodiment of 'moment',

hardly remembered because it's barely lived,

and troubled past of persistent phrases

haunts psyche wanting escape, never free

until committing to 'make it land'.

Narcissist

2011-10-19T05:13:00.000-07:00

Applauding myself after playing a song on my 50th b-day.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Narcissist

10/18/11

At 'Money Mystics and Manifestation Course'

meeting Monday night, once per month,

shadow work around this was done,

the audience as 'one entity' called

out descriptions while energetically embodying concept

in it's power, minus any constraints

or excuse for showing up fully,

where I disturbingly recognized similar attributes

as part of my 'persona' makeup,

next the group entered disowned aspects

of this shut down 'distorted robe'

wherein these appeared even more 'true',

while personal 'owning' filled my list

overflowing to next page without effort,

'coming to light' afterward I realized

those latter revelations as 'real deal'

and former just weak pompous trappings,

understanding past reticence in applauding Self

because of early program of denial

from Catholic religion demanding everyone's humility,

to family more easily managed without

big 'egos' of seven children taking

up space, time, resources each day,

toward end 'Big Mind Divinity' aligned

with 'dysfunctional human traits' poetically combined

at 'Apex', made it okay, without

guilt, to expressively be 'authentic' narcissist.

Uneven Ground

2011-10-18T05:29:00.000-07:00

The uneven Earth at Koli's Crystal Mountain in Finland.

Uneven Ground

10/17/11

Not easy keeping balance

when Earth moves underneath

with gravity pulling down

on curvy sloped roads,

pathways up hill, dale,

so much getting underfoot,

there are high, low

choices to be made

from vista to canyon

under sun splintered canopies

and fully exposed expanse,

while work, play intermingle,

take ping pong turns,

all one then another,

bringing serious presence, laughter,

experiencing bumps in life

within topsy turvy consciousness

that's often easily distracted,

feeling entitled to receive

joy, pleasure, peaceful living,

as white American male

having had good fortune

in years fondly remembered,

now back to beginnings

humbled by Nature's rough

uneven ground of Existence.

Companions

2011-10-16T04:29:00.000-07:00

'Byron Kitty' and 'Little Wing' dog.

Companions

10/15/11

I'm so very happily blessed

to have amazing animal creatures

sharing wonderful life with me,

'Byron Kitty' kneading my stomach,

'Wing' dog snoring on pillow,

these 'friends' like no others

so unconditionally loving, fully present,

exquisitely beautiful in their 'being-ness',

responsiveness, ways of uninhibited actions

which bring laughter, joy, wonder

about what they're thinking, feeling,

plus awe for unique shape,

embodied form, every perfect hair

precisely colored, placed, a masterpiece

created as one of kind

that fills heart to overflowing,

has me smiling in marvel

for how lucky I am

sharing many wonderful daily moments

whenever tenderness breaks me open,

expressed in touch, kisses, words,

saying how much I cherish

their miraculous existence so tremendous

as teachers, family, loyal confidants,

who ignite my generous spirit

while remembering missed human companions.

Full

2011-10-15T04:25:00.001-07:00

Raised beds in fall condition waiting winter garden to be sown as act of expression.

Full

10/13/11

Steady work

crams time

for self

into hours

before, after,

where weekend

promises reprieve

if not

filled by

other responsibilites,

social gatherings,

current projects

at home

waiting completion,

and aspirations

of expression

in workshop,

writing den,

on land,

plus reading

numerous books

while open

to inspiration

spontaneously arriving

adding to

full life.

Due Diligence

2011-10-14T04:46:00.000-07:00

Sun exaltation under tree canopy on land I live on.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Due Diligence

10/12/11

I breathe in electric ecstasy

that makes my heart soar

while walking outside to kitchen

downstairs when greeting 'full moon',

magnificent as it outshines stars,

hearing crickets sing their symphony

exalting warm Indian Summer night

soon to turn morning glory,

there's something in atmosphere quality

which immediately boosts my aliveness

having me sit on steps

under tree canopy with cat,

taking it in, becoming One

with this expression of Existence

showing up as nonstop Beauty

in small and large ways,

every part taking it's cue

from others intricately interconnected to,

becoming seamless Mystery that inspires,

catalyzes, invigorates my cellular body

no longer separated from rest

of Creation, these plants, animals,

elements, earth, air, fire, water,

totally absorbed, at peace with

how Life shows up daily

reminding me of due diligence.

On Knees

2011-10-13T04:27:00.000-07:00

View of water, beach, Wharf, lighthouse, Boardwalk, on deck filled with tools to cut trim.

Santa Cruz, California

On Knees

10/11/11

Started applying baseboard on beach

home project with sweet view

at end of 16th avenue,

now employed by contractor neighbor

who also has another job

waiting for me next week

on last Hidden Valley residence,

to rebuild glass enclosed octagon

perched atop roof above kitchen

that's been leaked on forever,

again I'll be hunched over,

legs bent, my joints padded,

though smack dab in middle

of 360 degree expansive beauty

seeing for miles across bay,

Santa Cruz mountains beyond ridges,

both these jobs remind childhood

kneeling in pews of church,

humbly praying for help, Guidance,

bringing all concerns to God

letting fears and sins release,

feeling better for the penance

delivering 'new attitude' when completed,

one of always bowing down

in appreciation for miraculous life

while on knees in service.

Temporarily Closed

2011-10-12T05:24:00.000-07:00

The sun about to be temporarily closed for business in Santa Cruz, California.

Temporarily Closed

10/10/11

Columbus Day shut bank, post office,

government business departments I wanted open

to handle affairs when off work,

made me adjust my plans accordingly

ending up at Starbucks with computer

keeping pace as 'Money Mystics' participant,

curious about written answers to questions

asked on latest video exploring 'abundance'

while getting clear concerning 'self sabotage'

that cuts me off from resources

I could use to support myself,

other folks believed in, nonprofit organizations,

friends, family, becoming a generous patron

with 'currency as energy' moving through,

not hoarding in fearful, greedy manner,

instead removing shutters that block love

light in heart yearning for expression,

expanse, as alchemist playing with potential,

letting go of old judgments stymying

Life Force meant to enliven exchange

in circumstances, appreciating, inspiring what's possible

inside every human, no matter degree

of denial around abilities to generate

wealth, as if dollars arbitrarily decide

one's worth, but really only point

toward temporarily closed willingness to commit.

Guardian Angel

2011-10-11T04:28:00.000-07:00

One of four 'attribute angels' on walls in Celtic inspired chapel.

Compton, Surrey, England

Guardian Angel

10/9/11

Recently, neighbor couple, old friends,

dropped in unannounced during walk

which was wonderful joyous surprise,

where afterward I received book

as gift, 'The Gentle Way'

penned by 'Tom T. Moore'

introducing 'most benevolent outcome' requests

to be used for everything,

from mundane to urgently important

in life, love, business, health,

anything, like wanting parking space,

so I'm using simple process

that engages my 'guiding companion'

disowned at ten years old

when 'momma's boy' smoked cigarette,

lied, did what was unapproved

by Catholic Church, parents, society,

not wanting 'witness' over shoulder

activating 'conscience' to remind me

about straying from 'high road'

seen as unreachable, unrealistic, joyless,

severely strict, disciplined, innately unexciting,

this began fall from grace

as 'alone' wolf struggling since,

dependent on my paltry humanness,

disconnected, hard, without intentional prayer

for myself, others, this world,

failing to embrace Guardian Angel.

Absorbed

2011-10-09T04:27:00.000-07:00

'Chaminade' sailboat entering harbor after sunset tour, framed between two lighthouses.

Santa Cruz, California

Absorbed

10/8/11

It's fascinating phenomenon

to be consumed

during creative process,

where mind dances

between brain hemispheres

making decisions based

on intuition, reason,

calmly drawing from

well of inspiration,

fluidly timing actions

within ebb, flow,

even when challenges

bringing seemingly contrary

circumstance to ponder

provoke acute attention

toward details unfolding,

held strictly, loosely,

depending puzzle piece

being dealt with

and final result

anticipated, not seen

until last stroke

of genius channeled

through my senses

as Life Force

I'm absorbed in.

Squeeze

2011-10-08T04:57:00.000-07:00

A second set of steps completed in the nick of time for 'Open Studios' starting today.

Squeeze

10/7/11

I do this sometimes,

put myself under pressure

by being in denial

about urgency or importance

until 'last minute' inspires

concerted effort toward completion

that supplies needed impetus

via adrenaline to persevere

what I've been procrastinating,

because no joy came

with guiding intuition when

checking in with myself

and trusted body wisdom

until finally realizing I

hadn't focused on completion,

only the tedious doing

which mostly appears unappetizing,

so I've become curious

wondering about underlying pattern

which could be permeating

intimate relationship with love,

money, aspirations around writing,

art, improvement projects, partnership,

expecting an easy unfoldment

as if somehow entitled,

always finding the time

when feeling deadline squeeze.

Makes Headway

2011-10-07T04:44:00.000-07:00

New set of steps over old that I'm currently working on.

Makes Headway

10/6/11

Simple steps, everyday action,

set course in motion

toward an eventual completion

of long delayed project

that drains Life Force

while thinking about it,

wondering how and when

I'll designate time, effort,

to follow things through,

which effects work elsewhere

wanting clients pleased, myself,

reminding I come first

because subjugation isn't effective,

self-imposed, or by others,

needing to trust Guidance

coming in small bits

as gut intuition, hunch,

to claim my life

utilizing dedicated 'soul authority'

deciding future from 'core',

what will play out

whether succeeding, or failing,

all the time learning

even during procrastination process,

whatever I'm attentive to

makes headway each day.

Adjustments

2011-10-06T05:13:00.000-07:00

First October rain that threw rainbows to the east while washing things clean.

Adjustments

10/5/11

Can I dance

to piper's erratic rhythmic beat,

forever playing

quiet, loud, fast, slow,

accumulated

past, future, now,

creates cacophony in memory banks

becoming dust

upon annuals of time,

testing

flexibility, openness to

spontaneous acceptance of 'what is',

moving fluidly

as weather, environment, change

throwing

rainbows, storms, sunshine,

ushering in smile, frown, peace

of mind,

because Soul deeply trusts

interconnection

with miraculous Source,

reminding again 'All is One'

big event'

occurring simultaneously at moment,

regardless

any adjustments made.

Emergence

2011-10-05T08:04:00.000-07:00

Dragonfly visiting 'GT' and I at mountain lake in Mt. Shasta.

Emergence

10/4/11

Two years since 'dragonfly' poem

written in blog declaring intentions,

boldly claiming 'soul destiny' directive

from poetically fluid development period

within dark depths of liquidity,

influenced by currents on surface

stirring up rich wisdom lessons

as ingredients to strengthen understanding

around deep commitment 'transformation' needs,

whenever exiting water's emotional environment

to enter air's clear domain,

becoming sleek, beautiful, solo pilot

loving powerful rainbow inspired form,

whole, fast, versatile, awe inspiring,

exquisitely sensitive to shimmering light

illuminating translucent, strong, gossamer wings,

where I'll dart over terrain

flying effortlessly, suspended in breeze,

go up, down, forward, reverse,

a witness observing constant change

occurring on winds of time,

using mercurial mind, multifaceted eyes,

many legs, to maneuver reality,

dreams waiting my surprise discovery,

using newly found perspective birthed

from miraculous emergence still unfolding.

New Information

2011-10-04T07:06:00.001-07:00

Snow dusted mountain in Scotland with monument honoring first World War soldiers.

New Information

10/3/11

Interviewed Erik Peper on 'Fighting Cancer'

a book about nontoxic treatment approach

chalked full of inspiring educational practices

with sections on asking questions, recording

instructions, warning against making decisions influenced

by 'fight, flight, freeze,' knee jerk,

ways to live healthy that empower

people which strengthens their immune system,

useful even if not fighting disease,

while talking about personal growth tools

such as visualization, inner dialogue, emotions,

influences of posture, energy drains, enhancers,

exercises to promote relaxation, or motivation,

eating good food, getting regular sleep,

being creative and having supportive environment

of friends, family, community that encourage,

help, are there for real conversations

around fears, hopes, sense of purpose,

sharing love, all important in choosing

to persevere, utilizing an expanded outlook

when defeat of one's diagnosed condition

feels like mountain that dwarfs abilities,

resources, and willingness to actively engage

fighting capabilities on successful 'hero journey',

pinpointing dragons to slay after using

new information to enact daring strategies.

Invitation

2011-10-02T04:12:00.001-07:00

Advertising in train station at Helsinki, Finland.

Invitations

10/1/11

Spoken or not, we are inundated

by opportunities to enter daily relationship

with Life on simple, grand scale,

often taken as demand if unwanted

no matter how it's sneakily disguised

by someone wanting resulting behavioral outcome

when coerced by partner, co-workers, boss,

or society with do, don't, directives

plus advertising looking to hook you

while sex sells clothes, lifestyle, alcohol,

through media churning out mixed messages,

all these coming from exterior sources,

'requests', originating on inside, are different

and can become a sincere prayer

asking for benevolent outcome in future

as intentional, expansively non-specific affirmation,

whether desiring parking space, love, money,

work, health, new openings in arenas

of Existence that have been closed

due to shortsightedness, fear, disbelief, arrogance,

any number of limiting mental constructs

meant for protection, though they strangle

surprising promising potential ably transforming world,

how we see, hear, feel others,

ourselves, every moment minus acquired prejudices,

whenever witnessing disturbance as Soul invitation.