Distanced

Kevin at Seabright Beach

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Distanced

7/11/09

At times I can witness

my self-induced solitary living

by just checking the results,

very few call to invite

asking for participation in fun

or some other social activity,

I'm without an intimate partner

left only to dream possibility

while caught in my importance,

that I'm doing something significant,

even when feeling so alone,

and yes, I have friends,

folks I love to see,

be with, and also acquaintances,

plus a big caring family,

but I don't make contact,

put on celebrations, dinner gatherings,

or ask advice, assistance,

to engage on deeper levels,

instead playing the independent game,

self sustained, insular, not needing

recognition for my self worth,

so occasional pity parties ensue,

though blessings cascade upon me,

pointing to my great desire

for closeness and being included

not distanced from love wanted.