Big Dipper at Santa Cruz Boardwalk  (photo by Art Durand Photography)

Heart Sparks

3/18/09

I get my hopes up

let them rise unabashedly

practicing a form of amnesia

which allows me joyousness

to feel high on emotional scale,

whether quick or slow ascent,

it is roller coaster chugging to peak

and my spirit soars accordingly,

excited anticipation of surprise turns

the unknown thrilling surges

while being tossed, jostled, tested

when trying to stay centered,

with eyes open, attentive to now,

what's coming next, and the past,

at times holding on for dear life,

then others, hands swaying in air

releasing energy in whoops, hollers

until course ends, exhilaration ebbs,

a sense of peace prevails briefly,

becoming empty melancholy loss,

opposite end to pendulum swing

wondering if it all was worth it

only to have strong urge come back,

willing to ride, pay price for 'love',

as heart sparks ignite desire to risk again.