Non-conformist

My shadow side at workshop window.

(photo by Art Durand Photography

Non-comformist

9/27/11

Monday night attended 'Money Mystics' talk

after interviewing the speaker Sunday morning

on my KZSC public affairs program,

perfect timing as debt still continues

because of decisions I've been making

around work, travel, dream pursuits,

relationship, what's important for life quality,

though jury is out on latter

as living on financial edge frays

parts of my psyche with discontent,

no longer smug from rebellious pride

that I'm succeeding by being 'alternative',

disheartened every time existence demands subservience

to living within means of capitalism,

a system I've never cared for,

discovering yesterday evening this shadow side

of disowned ego aspect that sabotages

any venture leading toward economic prosperity

for fear I'll become 'infected addict'

joining homogenized ranks of submissive populace

whose worth depends on monetary abundance

herded like sheep into box stalls

by financiers running crooked con game,

yet finally glimpsing I'm prison warden

limiting myself with misguided attitude suppressing

ability to really engage non-conformist potential.