Out Of Sync

Symbolic photo of wondering which route to take on the dusty backroads of my mind.

(photo by TD in Finland)

Out Of Sync

9/26/11

There are times when I feel lazy

while hard to stoke fire in belly

for any unfinished old projects, pressing business,

or to start something original and extraordinary,

where I begin loose self diagnostic process

that goes from compassionately discerning to judgmental,

evaluating where I have recently come from

with energy expended bringing 'less than' results

compared to dream scenarios of total fruition,

followed by peering future yet to form

recognizing what I neglected is home waiting

concerted effort toward coming back into alignment

which can overwhelm me in present moment,

kind of sit heavily on my chest

creating a depression like funky lower vibration

verily smothering any impetus for continuing valiantly

as rebellious lone wolf living life differently

than people judged unwilling to risk failure,

because fear punctures hole in stomach chakra

draining necessary Life Force required for successfully

persevering through daily challenges both big, small,

yet, for awhile, I enter powerless world

questioning my existence during relatively lethargic weekend

wallowing in unproductive distractions of rare malaise

feeling into body for some guiding impetus,

identifying reoccurring pattern as remembered pendulum swing

when out of sync from accustomed potency.