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Old 'medicine circle' of friends I joined in with from past Ehama Institute days

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9/30/11

How long have I kept distance

not letting friends, acquaintances, get close,

holed up in my little sanctuary

away from loved ones without sharing

beauty of this land, home, myself,

because there's been shame around condition

of how I 'represent' in world,

everything in some sort of process

that from outside could look crazy,

like I often feel on inside

when out of hand risks fail,

coming back here to 'what is'

tail between legs as if beaten

to remember and appreciate my blessings,

what good I add to world,

where my heart dwells amid chaos,

while gaining new perspectives as impetus

for action to break through confinement

I've implemented when fearing disparaging judgment

by others for how I've orchestrated

my life until now, reviewing images,

attitudes, opinions, beliefs, results kept secret,

this critical mind blocking original pathways

toward joy, abundance, love, community inclusion,

thinking it knows best, but doesn't

whenever choosing to not join in.