Narcissist

Applauding myself after playing a song on my 50th b-day.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Narcissist

10/18/11

At 'Money Mystics and Manifestation Course'

meeting Monday night, once per month,

shadow work around this was done,

the audience as 'one entity' called

out descriptions while energetically embodying concept

in it's power, minus any constraints

or excuse for showing up fully,

where I disturbingly recognized similar attributes

as part of my 'persona' makeup,

next the group entered disowned aspects

of this shut down 'distorted robe'

wherein these appeared even more 'true',

while personal 'owning' filled my list

overflowing to next page without effort,

'coming to light' afterward I realized

those latter revelations as 'real deal'

and former just weak pompous trappings,

understanding past reticence in applauding Self

because of early program of denial

from Catholic religion demanding everyone's humility,

to family more easily managed without

big 'egos' of seven children taking

up space, time, resources each day,

toward end 'Big Mind Divinity' aligned

with 'dysfunctional human traits' poetically combined

at 'Apex', made it okay, without

guilt, to expressively be 'authentic' narcissist.