Contain Myself

Building blocks that I've often depended on.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Contain Myself

2/7/11

Periodically over near 57 years

I've found that hopes, dreams,

not rooted in realistic estimation

of what can possibly be done,

by me amid surrounding circumstances,

often convey how I overextend

in regards to finance, relationship,

projects at home wanting accomplishment,

arrogantly thinking how I'm capable

just by waving hand with bravado

as if all is destined to happen

because of innate intelligence, energy,

gumption, that's certain to pull it off,

until building block here, there,

is shown to be an illusion,

perhaps once having real substance

but now, due to neglect, it fails

while intangible passionate desire fades,

only appearing in shadows of past

memories of how I used to be,

within disconcerting personal pattern

Life again gives me renewed chance

for evaluation with discerning eyes,

what capacity I have as older man

hopefully wiser from repeated experiences,

to joyfully contain myself through daily living.