Only Now

Contacting my muse.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Only Now

2/4/11

My mind plays with options, scenarios,

whether anticipating tomorrow work flow,

arrangements in trailer turned writing den,

images of playing softball after year off,

envisioning art studio and things to create,

plus any number of home, land projects,

all with underlying 'feel good' properties

when entertaining thoughts of active completion

while staying disciplined and on purpose,

I also wonder about what future holds

in regard to evolution of love relationships

with faith Life will show itself perfectly,

but uneasiness arrives before my curiosity

as any number of possibilities take hold

each time I 'try on' how it might transpire,

then corresponding scenes become dominoes

revealing as they fall what could happen,

who I'd be, become, according to results

based on who I'm with and my age,

what will 'home' look like to accommodate

shared dreams for self, partner, perhaps family,

presently all residing in Unknown Mystery,

and eventually I'll find peace with this,

even get excited about discovery, adventure

of stumbling upon destiny of 'what's true',

reminded only 'now' is where transformation begins.