Letting It Out

Either I'm trying to communicate something or I'm dancing the 'hula'.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Letting It Out

7/7/11

Something has shifted inside me

from work done with healer

around early wounding in childhood

that became distrust of feminine

not to be made mad,

or disappointed by telling truth

about gurgling fear in stomach,

while constantly monitoring emotional tension

and safety within unsafe world

I experienced as 'misunderstood anger'

as youngster knowing no better,

perhaps a dissolving has occurred

finally freed from hiding 'observations'

because I trust 'friendly universe'

filled with compassionate human beings,

one, in particular, a woman

who hears, feels what's said,

engages heart to heart communication

absent of unconscious trauma drama,

she holds basket for kachinas

large, small, or in between,

where I can be myself,

genuine, sincerely honest, troubled, magnificent,

letting what's real shape future,

instead of living 'make believe'

within dreams demanding optimal performance

derailed when letting it out.