Following Grace

Grapevine bud following mysterious code when unfolding.

Following Grace

3/30/12

Soul knows way

through this

lifetime,

instructs ego by

using mysterious

code,

those valuing control

hope masses

forget

how to decipher,

interpret, remember,

power

for resourcing, assembly,

planning and

action

inherently in them

as sacred

humans,

where Source inspired

messages direct

authorship

constantly over years,

though cultural

layers

filter sporadic arrival

of informative

wisdom

toward following grace.

Telling Story

San Anselmo rain swollen stream heading to nearby Pacific Ocean.

Telling Story

3/29/12

Over the years

I'll repeat

tale

about revelatory days

concentrated with

epiphanies

without real seminal

moment as

catalyst,

more a conglomeration

of small

realizations

beginning in mist,

rain, occasional

downpour,

becoming trickle, run

off, runnel,

stream,

coursing powerful river,

flowing, meandering,

cascading,

sometimes 'dammed', eddying,

momentarily stagnate,

until

breaking through, surging

again toward

ocean,

when telling story.

Intuition

California poppy intuiting the time to embrace Destiny.

Intuition

3/28/12

These 'soul insights'

illumine graceful

path,

enter secret door

behind 'ego

guard'

allowing magical hunch

into King's

chambers,

whispered in ear,

delivering 'heart

knowing'

as 'wisdom transmission'

from Divinity

domain

aligned with Source,

inspiring integrious

action

if sleeping 'sovereign'

will but

awaken,

respond to message,

embrace change

directing

'Destiny' intuition begins.

New World

Naked in a 'new world'!

(photo by Poppy de Garmo Photography)

New World

3/27/12

Protective layers shattered

off afford

sight,

senses, acclimation to

amazing environment

surrounding,

magnificence rarely completely

imbibed in

past,

the 'exception' through

clouded ego

receptors

busy 'sorting out'

Life's messy

desk,

right, wrong, good,

bad, piled

judgments,

now ancient Soul

having fully

arrived

marvels grand opportunity

for living

powerfully

in new world.

Light Reflections

Blossom from a succulent plant in my garden.

Light Reflections

3/26/12

Everywhere I go

as embodied

Soul

in beautiful world

of plants,

animals,

elements, wonderful people,

animated by

Source,

there's celebration, exaltation,

where 'Divinity',

mirroring

our shared 'Oneness',

shines tremendously

bright,

even as distorted,

dysfunctional shadow

sides,

humans accept and

endure as

normal,

futilely try to

extinguish Spirit's

inherently

radiant Light reflections.

Completed Arrival

My 'Horse in the Clouds/StarFire/Full Moon' tattoo. 3/23/12

Completed Arrival

3/24/12

A story existed

inside my

head,

until just recently,

about being

faulty,

ill-formed, parts missing,

unlike others,

different,

not suited for

this world

stage,

witnessing confident people

radiating courage,

purpose,

direction, vitality, enlivened,

energized, and

joy

filled, overflowing love

for All

Creation,

'Soul embodied', totally

intact within

Source,

now I'm 'One'

after 'watsu',

tattoo,

ceremonies completed arrival.

I AM HERE!

Emerging from the waters of Monterey Bay at Santa Cruz.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

I AM HERE!

3/23/12

Rebirth occurred in

'watsu' water

session

lovingly delivered through

surrogate mother

Jenna,

gently massaging, holding,

swirling, stretching,

submerging

me in liquid

medium reminding

womb,

until breath settled

becoming nearly

still,

then touch on

face opened

floodgates,

crying as baby

in her

arms

releasing trauma of

original 'induced'

emergence,

once emptied allowed

Soul's powerful

ascension,

finding legs, standing

up, laughing

loudly,

arms raised, body

electrically charged,

exclaiming

'I AM HERE!'

Leaping

Leaping into the waters of Monterey Bay at Seabright Beach. Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Leaping

3/22/12

Life is continuous

act of

faith,

more so when

committing to

Soul's

mythic archetypal 'hero

journey' beckoning

jump

into Unknown, relegating

ego to

service

maintaining mind, body,

spirit, emotion

balance,

awakening amazing spectrum

within 'realistic

dreamer',

engaging imagination and

courage for

action

toward genuine integral

Destiny, powerfully

embodied,

leaping Divinely onward.

Downturns

Still smiling after many eccentric courageous acts have brought less than optimal results.

Downturns

3/12/12

Less than optimal

results can

motivate

those courageous enough

to try

again,

while making necessary

adjustments around

attitude,

intentions, purpose, direction,

what's really

important,

then living new

days embracing

opportunities

for simply enjoying

pleasure of

'being'

exquisitely perfect soul

embodied within

Existence,

whereas more choices

arrive for

'becoming'

expressively refined sacred

human after

downturns.

Circling

Traffic moving on the Golden Gate Bridge on a recent rainy day.

San Francisco, California.

Circling

3/20/12

Life is movement,

tides, shifting

sands,

constant growth spurts

between necessary

recovery,

especially when activities

disrupt Soul

direction,

if known, often

not in

youth,

though early years

provide necessary

clues

that maturity collects,

deciphers, mysteriously

interprets,

from spiraling multi-dimensional

mandala of

experience

acting like centrifuge,

ejecting what's

unimportant,

circling into Essence.

Begin Again

Printing 'Spitzer Construction' t-shirts at BroPrints was one of many activities last week.

Begin Again

3/19/12

After whirlwind weekend,

plus week

before,

where routine structural

rhythms were

disrupted,

another day arrives

to fine

tune

energies, thoughts, direction,

influenced by

travel,

people met, artistry

imbibed, time

away

from this land,

home, workshop,

wherein

'soulful' heart re-sings

melody future

hears,

enticing every blessing,

Divine inspiration,

clearly

focused dedication, to

begin again.

Love

San Francisco Bay waters flowing under the Golden Gate Bridge out to the ocean.

Love

3/17/12

It is deepening,

expanding, intensifying

vibration,

energetically opening heart

beyond previous

parameters,

where ability astounds,

incapacitating measuring

ego,

unable to control,

hold back,

divert

rushing river sweeping

clean old

perceptions,

feelings, stories, senses,

maintaining fearful

paradigm

about interrelated Existence,

Nature, community,

people,

where anyone, anything,

can radiate

inherent

Source imbedded love.

Thrive

Early morning as millions of people 'wake up' around San Francisco Bay.

(photo taken from 'vista point' on north end of Golden Gate Bridge)

Thrive

3/16/12

Saw same named

movie last

night,

incredible tying together

Life's loose

ends

while painting picture

depicting troubling

predicament,

plus human possibilities,

potential, Universal

phenomenon,

with plan and

call to

action,

where I've been

opened even

wider

in desire to

do my

part,

inspired toward joining

millions in

'non-violation',

letting goodness thrive.

Shame

My 'relationship altar' from November 18th, 2008

Shame

3/15/12

Researcher Brene Brown

did 'TED'

talk

on subject, coinciding

my recent

revelation

about failed Midori

marriage engagement,

credit

card debt from

that crazy

adventure,

compounded by economic

downturn plus

cavalier

money attitude, causing

low lying

depression

about past, anxiousness

around future,

while

protecting ego ... now

'Soul' speaks

vulnerably,

acts courageously, interacts

authentically, dispelling

shame.

Mix It Up

Doing 'tslagi', not 'Tai Chi', in my medicine wheel.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Mix It Up

3/14/12

I enjoy change,

reorganizing, cleaning

house,

laundry, van, desk,

renewing mental

perspective,

invigorating energy, spirit,

subtly, yet

surely,

like first 'Tai

Chi' class

experience

as Asian 'sensei'

instructs 'small

smile'

on student faces

while learning

movements,

or when week

long rain

forecast,

a friend's visit

and social

events

mix it up.

Ingenuity

Area for new shop extension to expand cutting and assembly areas.

Ingenuity

3/13/12

Monday was remarkable ...

ordered 'Wing'

t-shirts,

then manufactured handrail

outside of

workshop,

jumped on motorcycle

to purchase

primer,

painted as cloudy

weather system

arrived,

preceding wild reorganization

and envisioning

whirlwind

when readying for

Gentle Thunder's

visit,

wherein functional art

pieces showed

themselves ...

downspout chains, golf

club walking

sticks,

altars ... shop extension,

while streaming

ingenuity.

In Thin Air

All of Creation seemingly manifested from thin air.

View eastward from my workshop.

In Thin Air

3/12/12

Another week starts

of soul

authorship

with myriad possibilities

and responsibilities

waiting,

dancing in mind

soon to

lasso,

put on list

I'll check

off

after making decisions

around optimal

timing,

prioritized personal importance

plus others'

needs,

geared toward weekend

full of travel,

gatherings, art, music,

theater, love,

manifesting

in thin air.

Waiting

Waiting during photo shoot.

(photo by Poppy de Garmo Photography)

Waiting

3/10/12

In mad dash

world of

pursuit,

desired instant gratification,

made up

timetables

that placate some

fear of

losing,

being beaten to,

justified entitlement

rewards,

panic insidiously grips

those desperately

striving

to keep imagined

wolf from

door,

where abilities for

intuiting graceful

passage

through Life's confusing

labyrinth are

concealed,

waiting renewed acknowledgement.

New Methods

Incomplete prototype corner 'altar' for my deceased 'Wing' dog.

(pre-finished recycled redwood shelving boards)

New Methods

3/9/12

Playing

with ideas

is fun realm

I'm

often found

excitedly exploring in,

each

notion tumbles

into outrageous next,

some

viable while

others fall away,

worthy

ones return,

knock at door

wanting

further perusal

for possible manifestation,

are

let in

to bounce around,

become

refined, ingeniously

creative new methods.

Advancement

New logo for back of work t-shirts to honor my 'Wing' girl.

(Design by BroPrints)

Advancement

3/8/12

Any dreamed idea

hoped to

manifest

must have room

for dancing

possibility,

potential, by being

discussed, envisioned

dynamically,

somehow embodying energy

future could

hold

before moving toward

attaining miraculous

goal,

pros, cons, need

sober weighing

in

even while spark

of genius

propels

creativity, catapulting worlds

prophetically imagined

into

phases of advancement.

Focus

Seeming intently focused on explaining some wild idea of mine.

(photo by Poppy de Garmo Photography)

Focus

3/7/12

It's great practice

after whirlwind

weekend

filled with ideas,

concepts, inner

work,

to fully land

in familiar

territory

of creative labor,

using tools,

expertise,

diligently furthering process,

progress, toward

completion,

witnessing starts, stops,

limbo in

between,

accepting natural ebb,

flow, as

strategy,

making space for

authentic percolation

bringing

genius into focus.

For Everyone

Spitzer Family picture before last sibling Mary Ann was born.

That's me in the middle.

For Everyone

3/6/12

'Lone wolf' American

narcissism creates

separation

story of 'each

person for

themselves',

somehow forgetting DNA

tribal community

roots

of interdependence that

multiplies joy

while

halving sadness shared

with family,

friends,

where my struggle

does not

differ

archetypically from yours,

only specifically

outside,

as interior wrestling

between Soul,

ego,

occurs for everyone.

Landing

United Airline plane coming into land with San Francisco in the background.

( view from Embassy Suite Hotel)

Landing

3/5/12

Weekend money seminar

rewired attendee

brains

with shadow work,

'Big Mind'

integration,

speakers opening conversation

on social

media,

marketing 'as fit'

reframed 'selling'

mantra,

while acceptance of

individual disowned

parts

catapulted group process

during three

days,

plus KZSC radio

pledge drive

between,

where 'Conciliation Sunday'

outdid itself,

today

landing will commence.

Catching Fire

Burnt trees with rain clouds in distance.

North Rim of the Grand Canyon.

Catching Fire

3/3/12

Each day brings

original opportunities

kindling

new and old

ideas inside

mind,

to flare up,

become blazing

inferno

that evaporates any

dampening emotional

obstacles,

which compels to

advance steadfastly

onward

into brush of

overgrown layered

resistance

that fuels hero

journey through

disowned

shadowy wild beasts

on periphery

subsumed

when catching fire

Back In Order

Orderly living/writing space in front room of my 'wee croft' in the small village of 'Kintra'.

Isle of Mull, Scotland

Back In Order

3/2/12

I can rail

against slowing

down,

often when virus

runs through

system

robbing me of

energy to

accomplish

what mind instructs

body to

complete,

'giving in' becomes

an awkward

experience,

reading, sleeping more,

not pushing,

accepting,

waiting for vitality

to return

while

doing small neglected

chores, putting

things

back in order.

Back To Center

Me, a day before turning 58 years old.

(photo by Poppy de Garmo)

Back To Center

3/1/12

Is it age,

or personal

configuration

full of sensibilities

unique to

me

that creates sensitivity,

demands fine

tuning,

in thought territories,

food eaten,

exercise,

released emotional expression,

social activities

chosen,

plus soulful direction,

becoming precise

instrument

pointing 'true north'

amid magnetic

attractions

confusing inner purpose

compass readings

directing

back to center.

Condensing

Grasping simple pleasure, a 'black and tan', at friend Ed Snodgrass's home in Maryland.

Condensing

2/29/12

Old paradigm humans

change slowly,

grasp,

hold on tightly

to familiar

safety,

simple pleasures that

buffer, distract

uneasy

confusion about future,

what's being

asked

when societal constructs

stretch to

breaking,

afraid of loss,

not thinking

gain,

what goodness awaits

in coming

days

now just thoughts,

dreams, stories,

swirling,

condensing in centrifuge.