The Switch

The potent moment switching from standing still to opening the throttle.

(photo by Crysse Morrison)

The Switch

12/29/11

Looking

to flip

it,

finally

leave my

conundrums,

fully

engage what's

next,

simply

with passionate

pursuit,

harnessing

horse energy

daily,

from

standing to

gallop,

making

the switch.

Witnessing

Self=portrait driving back from southern California with a truck load of workshop machinery.

Witnessing

12/28/11

My antics

would be humorous

if not

taken so seriously

by Perfectionist

often at wheel

measuring degree

of right, wrong,

as Judge

defining highest worth

to pursuits

purporting significant importance,

thankfully Soul

sees larger picture,

says 'Relax,

forever busy egoistic

'monkey mind',

continue witnessing miracles.'

After

Floating in Monterey Bay at Seabright Beach in Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

After

12/27/11

Once

festivities end

things settle down,

recalibration

of body,

mind, spirit, emotions,

re-aims

toward purpose,

direction, vitality, integrity,

strengthened

by connective

family, friends, community,

again

finding balance

within Life immersion,

floating,

swimming, surfing,

diving deep beneath,

after.

Assist

Assisting angels, Mimi and Melody, at Floyd's 90th birthday celebration.

Assist

12/24/11

Each

plays part

in Great Turning,

according

personal timetable

and revolutions inside,

without

comparing ourselves

envious of others,

this

is music

on grand scale,

vibrations

ripple outward

large and small,

bearing

unique quality

we assist others

Accountability

The Buddha statue in the flower garden inspired by my buddy Art Durand.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Accountability

12/23/11

In end

my biggest relationship

is not

lover, partner, family,

some other,

but with Life,

Source Energy,

this miraculous Existence

as Soul

sharing Infinite Is-ness,

without separation,

guiding inhabited ego

in world

through mind, body,

and emotions,

to be servant

creating results

becoming proven accountability.

It Flows

Seabright Beach, Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

It Flows

12/22/11

Then, when

all is ready,

preparations made,

plenty of sleep,

right thoughts,

eating proper food,

plus exercise,

requesting through prayer

benevolent outcome,

help from ancestors,

spirits loving,

caring, for people,

committing oneself

on personal path

of Soul

expression this lifetime,

it flows.

Pointing

Pointing out where I used to live and do things at the end of the ridge.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Pointing

12/20/11

Whether it's

some planetary alignment,

full schedule

not offering opening,

'perfect storm'

of blocking circumstance,

procrastination lessons

to be learned,

Life often

channels toward direction

for Soul

realizations around clarity

and importance,

plus deepest desires

patiently waiting

as future possibilities,

delivering awareness

pointing the way.

Reward

My Mom who modeled staying busy and being a giver.

At her 88th birthday party.

Reward

12/19/11

I struggle

with concepts around

enjoying life,

being on purpose,

going after

latest farfetched dreams,

while balancing

time spent working

for money,

practicing self care

by relaxing

when feeling urgency

to produce,

take action steps

toward goals,

things needing done,

wanting accomplished,

as own reward.

Permanence

Design carved on tomb lid of a 12th century Scottish knight. A tattoo?

Isle of Iona, Scotland

Permanence

12/16/11

Few things

have this essence

in world

that's forever changing,

death does,

scars, losing limbs,

body parts,

sometimes broken heart,

or residue

from physical abuse,

as counterpoint

there's love experiences

staying with

giver and receiver,

plus goodness

housed in Soul

like tattoo

carrying Life permanence.

Fluctuations

Keith, me, goddaughter Adrienne, Zeke, and guide in rapids on Tuolumne River, California.

Fluctuations

12/15/11

The ebb, flow

of energy

I'm always calibrating

affects choices

and the difficulty

following through

with any vision

that entrances

on soul plane

while navigating

thick physical world,

bringing heaven

down to earth

can be

hellish when manifesting

upon river

surging with fluctuations.

Sacrifice

Arthur Durand III and Corinna Bloom on their wedding day.

Sacrifice

12/14/11

It's surrendering

something highly valued

for another

supremely prized attainment,

letting loose

thoughts of entitled

having everything

all at once,

willingly postponing

or downright losing

some aspect

of Sacred Dream,

while inviting

mysterious uncontrolled circumstance

it's seat

at Destiny's table,

being ready

to be consumed

by Forces

within Life sacrifice.

Important Part

Stone beach behind Findhorn, with entry to Northern Highlands of Scotland in distance.

Important Part

12/13/11

In this river

of Life

I'm humbly honored

and proud

to join brothers,

sisters, ancestors,

on amazing journey

filled with

love, danger, mystery,

toward ocean

consciousness of Oneness,

Unity, Stewardship,

persevering stagnate eddies,

rapids, waterfalls,

discovering strength, weakness,

turning 'shadows'

into friendly allies

while courageously

playing important part.

Out It

Lunar eclipse early morning 12/10/11 from my house in Soquel, California.

Out It

12/8/11

Surprising

what comes

when opportunity shows

itself

for speaking

long held words,

thoughts

not consciously

collected as opinion,

belief,

attitude, image,

having formed inside,

yet

once started

brain's amazing synapse

discovers

connective thread

to out it.

Enter

Spilling myself backwards into Monterey Bay at Seabright Beach in Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Enter

12/6/11

The choice

of how wet

we'll get

in this river,

toe, foot,

leg, lower torso,

full emersion,

and ocean waters,

doesn't matter,

or arrival technique,

speed, grace,

when we realize

decision made

was long ago,

before birth,

to enter life.

The Judge

At the end of the ridge where I first began living on this amazing land.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

The Judge

12/6/11

Shadow work

has released him

from jail

where barely heard,

often disdained,

I'd go opposite

distant warnings

to prove false

that 'realist'

is 'dreamer's' superior,

Big Mind

says 'Get along.'

while playing

with authentic thoughts,

feelings, actions,

my Soul

has 'him' handcuffed

to Divinity

becoming ally as

'the Judge'.

New Approaches

'Wing' dog, and 'Byron Kitty' comfortably living a 'new approach'.

New Approaches

12/5/11

Leaving behind

some old ways

of doing

what I've done,

allowing for

original intuitive ideas

to influence

when entering mind,

sparking synapse

creates puzzle pieces

finding place

in emerging mandala,

I witness

same phenomenon unfolding

in world

desperately needing change,

new approaches.

Benevolent Outcomes

Once the tiptop of a towering redwood, now the severed 60 ft. top laying sideways.

Benevolent Outcomes

12/3/11

This request

is new mantra

opening potential

for what's best,

expanding intention

beyond limited mind

to catalyze

invisible magical realm

of possibilities'

far reaching expanse,

the timeless

'All' encompassing miracle,

unrestrained, unbounded,

connected to Source,

'is-ness, Life,

becoming mysteriously dreamed

benevolent outcomes.

In The Dark

My debris covered driveway after pulling larger limbs to the side.

In The Dark

12/1/11

Violent winds rip,

debris flying everywhere

all night long

testing branch strength,

rootedness to Earth

as Air whistles,

howls, is locomotive

driving head on

through oak, redwood,

madrone, bay, eucalyptus,

all are effected,

and power lines

with vulnerable wires

easily become disrupted,

severed, leaving us

in the dark.

Clarity

Harbor near Jack London Square in Oakland, California with San Francisco in distance.

Clarity

11/28/11

I dance

around circumstance,

possibilities, potential,

stardust ideas

blow through,

surface, submerge,

join others

as Mind's

theater performance,

evoking laughter,

curiosity, amazement,

for creative

Life process,

seemingly chaotic,

mundane, uninspired,

until genius

in moment

coagulates clarity.

Little Things

At the end of the ridge with old tree swing rope hanging from a familiar oak tree.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Little Things

11/26/11

I'm touched

by these,

unlike straw

that breaks

camel's back,

or last

straw turning

someone psycho,

it's small

seeing with

appreciative eyes

which exponentially

magnifies love

for world,

family, friends,

All Creation,

my being-ness,

becoming, what

I've been,

and the

little things.

Gratitude

Loving life during photo shoot at Seabright Beach in Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Gratitude

11/24/11

For All

I love,

have loved,

will love,

and those

who love,

have loved,

will love

me also,

this Existence,

it's 20

Count Beauty,

my home,

den, shop,

healing land,

plants, animals,

skills, talents

I possess,

vibrant health,

there's gratitude.

Well Rested

A big early morning yawn in my medicine wheel.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Well Rested

11/23/11

Life's different

when

fully recharged,

enabling

'give away'

energy

during day

focused

on building,

creating

for money,

where

early darkness

plus

cooler temperatures

entice

long bedtime,

awaking

well rested.

Who Leads

My ex-wife Melody, me, Dylan dog in foreground and Wing dog leading the way.

(photo by Art Durand photography)

Who Leads

11/21/11

Following notions

appearing

in mind,

amid

scrutiny there's

imagining

end game

that

may occur,

listening

I wait,

knowing

alignment comes

inspiring

enjoyable action,

wondering

who leads.

Recharge

Showering outside in the summer.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Recharge

11/19/11

Colder days,

nights,

early darkness

changes

human behavior,

slows

energy output

though

not mine,

loving

fragrant musky

air

rains bring,

soaking

earth sprouts,

invigorating

outside showers,

fires,

layered bedding,

deep

sleep recharge.

Enjoy

Exuberant!

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Enjoy

11/18/11

No matter

predicament

or state,

just being

alive

is enough,

imbibing glorious

miracle

through senses,

breathing Life

as

it is,

everything else

becomes

additional icing

on cake

celebrating

inherently diverse

simple Existence

here

to enjoy.

In Silence

Blessed to live in the middle of Nature and 'All' of It's 'silence'.

In Silence

11/16/11

Pervading 'All'

underneath the cacophony

that's humanity

consumed by stimuli

bouncing inside

busy talkative minds

hearing chatter

from television, radio,

Ipods, advertisements,

reassuring our ego

of importance,

though drained, stressed,

not regenerating

like Nature does

in silence.

Along The Way

At Seabright Beach in Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Along The Way

11/14/11

'Is-ness'

happens daily

turning into progress

when

directed toward

ideas, intentions, actions,

amid

unfathomable miracle

all on course

without

belief in

any of it

or

payment necessary

along the way.

Attend To

Taking a moment to relax lakeside in Finland.

(photo by TD)

Attend To

11/12/11

Each day

I do this

in my life territories

so vast

filled by events

both mundane and grand

following Guidance

filtered through mind,

body, spirit and emotions

that demand

presence of awareness

plus discernment to choose

what action

will or won't

be taken in moment

while care

for Self leads

as priority I'll knowingly

attend to.

Gods

A 'surprising' waterfall on the Isle of Mull, Scotland.

Gods

11/10/11

Heard a story

with Mayan origins

about these entities,

Deities of Life,

Death and Chance,

where human beings

on one side

plus 'Holies' opposite

engage this world

both doing parts,

while wild card

'surprise' inhabits middle

like small creek

taking up 2%

of Life course

which creates risk,

nothing for certain,

everything becomes gamble,

practiced divination, to

please the Gods.

Faith and Fear

Long shadows of photographer Art Durand and myself.

Seabright Beach, Santa Cruz, California

Faith and Fear

11/9/11

Dreamer and Realist

at odds

find the Apex

shared by

Divinity and Ego

as partners

who co-create anew,

shining Light

on disowned Self

reveals Shadow

that follows us,

mimicking gestures

our Dark Side

if denied

can wreak havoc

until integrating

Faith and Fear.

Freedom 'to'

Artist 'Valerie Joi', is the Minister of Music and Arts for Inner Light Ministries.

Interviewed on 'Conciliation Sunday' for upcoming CD release and fundraising party.

Freedom 'to'

11/7/11

So often it's 'from'

a pain that pushes

with mind focused there,

better to have vision

which pulls us toward

a goal truly worthy

of our 'Higher Self',

beyond constant 'task' mentality

bringing relief when complete

not joy of manifesting

according to Integrity Standards

and Intentions that serve,

matching those Character Qualities

we admire in others

also living within us

because we share vibration,

seeing through our eyes

freedom 'to' be exalted.

Clearing

One last little clearing downpour.

Clearing

11/5/11

Cycles come around

Summer to Fall,

rains invite growth

clean dusty surfaces

as cold grips

contents of room,

intruding from outside

with sun blocked

by sky culprits

in cloud conspiracy,

fire in wood

is released now

overpowering the chill

that's closed inside,

stories held leave

through open door

of expanding heart

creating clearing space.

Shifting Winds

Rainbow above Calhoun Canyon from shop roof.

Shifting Winds

11/4/11

Weather change

brings rain on roof,

wood stove crackles

from fire inside,

green sprouts surfacing

in unison,

plastic covers resources

collected, unused,

for projects dreamed

not started,

another year

of sour economy,

confused intentions, distractions,

work lately,

promises money

coinciding with priorities

rearranged, matching

shifting winds.

Ones

Chinese numerology is covered in Dr. Gary Dolowich's book, 'Archetypal Acupunture'.

Interviewed at KZSC on 'Conciliation Sunday'.

Ones

11/1/11

Adding this date up

turns into five,

'movement' for Chinese,

'Elements' in acupuncture

Wood, Fire, Earth, Metal, Water,

also corresponding seasons

Spring, Summer, Indian Summer,

Autumn, then Winter,

plus archetypes Warrior, Lover,

King, Queen, Sage,

Spitzer's fifth child 'Keith',

digits on hands, feet,

'Sacred Human' in Mayan Twenty Count

where single unit is 'Sun',

eleven, represents 'Stars',

so many creations

each of us

as the 'Ones'.

Ending, Beginning

Early morning me.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

End, Beginning

10/29/11

Living in a nutshell

this continuous cycle

I'm part and parcel of

forever changing

through

Soul connected Life Force

prevailing each day

in richly diverse pulsating Existence

as omnipotent

Form

which is also me

joined at hip

there's no escaping the miracle

we're in

One

teeming phenomenon so grand

how could anyone

get lost within their 'troubles'

missing blessings

Present

though I can find

melancholy coming around

when something that is valued

turns missing

remembering

ending, beginning.

Enough Already

My writing den with an overhead shelf full of poetry books I've written since 1980.

Enough Already

10/28/11

There are plenty of books

that contain myriad rambling words

about personal process of introspection,

'contemplating my navel' some say,

plus observations directed at world,

relationships, whether good, bad, between

work, spirituality, Existence, friendship, emotions,

really just a glorified diary

to revisit someday for memories,

and it's been great practice

in energetically clearing inner slate

as an early morning ritual

of gifting myself with time

to appreciate life first, foremost,

doing something I truly love

when being creative while writing,

birthing original 'full circle poems'

most days, exercising 'God' nature

bringing ideas into physical manifestation,

this I'll continue until death

though wanting form to change

while accommodating urge for exploration

penning expression of different types,

short stories, 'educational, philosophical, political'

commentary, finishing novel, editing poetry

with aim toward eventual publication

since I have enough already.

Small Joys

About to engage a 'small joy' on Southwest motorcycle trip.

Small Joys

10/26/11

I want to make a list

of these, and large ones also,

kept on refrigerator with a magnet

for reminder when feeling off, not

optimal, potent, and virile, more depressed

from some run of negative thinking,

forgetting birthright as unique miraculous being

'no less than moon and stars',

which happens while focused on 'lack',

as result of eccentric, rebellious nature,

my critical judgement mind that rules

in reaction mode whenever I'm disgusted

with 'self', seen from Life mirroring

the 'shadow commitments' creating my reality,

thereby making appreciation of blessings difficult

because comparisons point out hidden expectations

about where, what, I 'should' be

by this age, with accordant wisdom

around all daily human aspects, concerns,

luckily strong ancestral blood courses through

veins as Scottish, Irish, Romanian Jew,

persevering spirit 'with no give up',

or 'in', for long, to melancholy,

instead eventually celebrating gifts it brings

disguised as troubles, later to find

small joys magnified after pendulum swing.

Unenlightened

A view of Duarte Castle and the stone block of granite it's fortress walls were built upon.

Isle of Mull, Scotland

Unenlightened

10/25/11

Feeling this of late,

opposite past ecstatic times

when thought on path

to higher consciousness nirvana

full of continued exaltation,

again hitting humanness wall

seeing ways I sabotage

by judging myself, others,

this supposedly civilized world,

as old patterns surface

testing for footing friction,

they then seemingly find

ground that again supports

their arguments, views, attitudes,

which once reigned supreme,

perhaps I'm at edge

of some grand breakthrough

percolating from 'shadow' work

around 'integrity, intention, abundance,'

while revisiting childhood history

doing 'exercises' in book

'The Energy of Money',

pointing to behavioral traps

I've been caught in

during past and now,

where freedom is limited

by unenlightened egotistical perspective.

Out Of Step

Main entry door and steps to Duarte Castle of the MacLean Clan.

Isle of Mull, Scotland

Out Of Step

10/24/11

In last two weeks

a couple accidents remind

how easy it is

to fall from grace,

witnessing a 'failed presence'

because taken for granted

abilities were thrown off,

delivering wake up call

that has me wonder

what's underlying greater message

being pointed my way,

as alternate realities wobble

like a shimmering mirage

of one who's thirsty

for knowing which door

presenting itself will open

with future that coincides,

seeing past ways offered

still available and familiar,

while an original world

beckons from ethereal visions

glimpsed as winsome possibility,

things I'd do if

money wasn't an issue,

or happenstance arrives taking

me out of step.

Work Up To It

New top story of water tower structure being lifted into place by King Crane.

Lakeside Organic Farms, Watsonville, California

Work Up To It

10/21/11

So much is preparation

when wrapping mind around

what's wanted to happen

with things in place

to accomplish difficult task

whether short, long term,

where resources, tools, knowledge

need to be assembled

while asking pertinent questions

along winding road forward

collecting wisdom left behind

by those fellow travelers

who've made similar journey,

readily giving their expertise

about experience reaping success,

in end each person

lives with decisions made

for better or worse

judged by resulting outcome,

right pace without impatience,

listening small quiet voice,

paying attention gut feelings,

trusting intuition as guide,

minimizing possibilities for error

becomes mantra whenever I

work up to it.

Application

A creative bed 'headboard' to awaken under.

Application

10/20/11

It's vision

with willingness

for commitment

while daily

moving toward

goal completion

that can

take longer

due to

so many

dreams wanting

physical manifestation

from ethers

where creation

process starts

after awaking

each morning

as human,

being, becoming,

always changing

with circumstances

forever fluid,

often threatening

possible failure,

instilling concerted

application efforts.

Make It Land

Trying to 'land' some sentiments while singing at my 50th birthday bash.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Make It Land

10/19/11

Heard this concept during radio interview

of woman who wrote amazing book

about 'easy steps to acting craft'

saying the 'British love words'

where elocution becomes languidly rich pronunciation

that enters theatrical, musical, heavenly realms

as consumable gustatory expression finding home

on Earth through ears of audience,

delivered with unique breath, adding color,

depth, realism, drawing on operatic power

of such 'presence' that it startles,

invites, verily sucks in the observer

to become engaged by feelings intricately

connected with what is being said,

distinctively utilizing perfect pace, inflection, volume,

for situation so 'real', communication happens,

people 'get' one another, deeply, wholeheartedly,

transmitting true meaning from core origins

creating atmosphere that's rarely fully imbibed

in mad world stumbling over itself,

often harried, hurried, while hurdling toward

future without total embodiment of 'moment',

hardly remembered because it's barely lived,

and troubled past of persistent phrases

haunts psyche wanting escape, never free

until committing to 'make it land'.

Narcissist

Applauding myself after playing a song on my 50th b-day.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Narcissist

10/18/11

At 'Money Mystics and Manifestation Course'

meeting Monday night, once per month,

shadow work around this was done,

the audience as 'one entity' called

out descriptions while energetically embodying concept

in it's power, minus any constraints

or excuse for showing up fully,

where I disturbingly recognized similar attributes

as part of my 'persona' makeup,

next the group entered disowned aspects

of this shut down 'distorted robe'

wherein these appeared even more 'true',

while personal 'owning' filled my list

overflowing to next page without effort,

'coming to light' afterward I realized

those latter revelations as 'real deal'

and former just weak pompous trappings,

understanding past reticence in applauding Self

because of early program of denial

from Catholic religion demanding everyone's humility,

to family more easily managed without

big 'egos' of seven children taking

up space, time, resources each day,

toward end 'Big Mind Divinity' aligned

with 'dysfunctional human traits' poetically combined

at 'Apex', made it okay, without

guilt, to expressively be 'authentic' narcissist.