Patience

Callanish Stones, Isle of Harris and Lewis, Scotland

Patience

2/27/10

Quite a curious thing,

some instances it's there

others not a lick,

like waiting in line

for purchase of non-essentials,

or traffic jam madness,

plus any killing time

until a movie's scheduled,

and I'll admit frustration

with a late arrival

of friend's promised rendezvous,

yet, if it's me

I give wide berth

allowing room for spontaneity,

shifts from what's planned

left open for surprise,

often appearing as procrastination,

which it could be

as projects lie incomplete

for reasons of anticipation,

needing some necessary ingredient

to catapult job forward

in right attitude, timing,

maturing along the way,

trusting process of creation

instead of ramrod mentality

containing distortions that judge

according to expected goal

set concretely, eliminating patience.

Constancy

My previously coal burning 'Franklin' stove now converted to wood.

Constancy

2/26/10

Each cold winter morning

fire ritual is enacted

of splitting, breaking kindling,

putting paper in first

followed by small wood

then bigger in progression

through top round portal

cast iron cover seals

on 'Ben Franklin' stove,

an old coal burner

having pulled guts from

to accommodate split oak

once flames are established

after final honoring sequence,

bowing on one knee

with air vents open,

I strike kitchen match

upon rough sided box

watching miracle burst forth,

stored sunlight, flickering brightly,

enters large combustion chamber

and begins building momentum,

becoming a locomotive roar

from ignited hungry feeding

that I dampen expertly,

regulating an essential ingredient,

oxygen, so it burns

long, slow, sustainably hot,

modeling constancy I value.

Restarting

Morning departure after visiting friends near Newcastle on the T'yne, England.

50th Birthday Tour, 2004

Restarting

2/25/10

Everyday hosts many responsibility options

some of great personal significance

such as those under radar

of one's daily ego consciousness,

and often endings can occur

especially if moving somewhere else

pulling up roots from area

with hopes of finding fertility

for dreams, visions, and home

in new territory of existence

on diverse spaceship Mother Earth,

this separation from old location

provides opportunity to shuck baggage,

letting go of stagnate ways,

attitudes, opinions, images and beliefs

that can hold us back

from realizing some essential creativity

lost in life deadening routines,

these are potent transformative moments

where change can catalyze vibrance

sparking us toward something forgotten,

like soul, our real purpose

within this magical Mystery tour,

so ready to be influenced

when awakening to deeper urges

which smack of primal directive,

'Do this or die miserably.'

more likely if denial wins,

robbing vitality, when restarting poorly.

Articulate

'Scottish dance' at a 'ceilidh' during my last night on the Isle of Mull, Scotland.

February 27th, 2007

Articulate

2/24/10

It's fun to dance

by moving the joints

in creative sequenced play

that clearly communicates joy,

especially with someone else

when coordinated and synchronistic,

or even freeform when

both individuals uniquely feel,

listen, decipher the music,

letting lyrical rhythms enter

stirring one's inner vibrations

upward on emotional scale

smiling from the resonance

which dissolves any separateness

as fluidity takes over

when body syncopations burst

into previously unknown gyrations,

and writing is similar,

allowing words to arrive

one squarely following another

within an underlying structure

capable of creating currents

of original juxtaposed ideas

never before so arranged,

stimulating fresh brain synapse

able to shine light

on myriad of concepts,

some that find movement

inside one's articulate soul.

Innovations

Raft builder, Montezuma, Costa Rica

Innovations

2/23/10

We're all asked

to be creative

in changing times,

those who don't

suffer the dissonance

between past, future,

experienced as stress

within paradoxical existence,

where old truth

takes final gasp

before new supplants,

while during limbo

reality and dreams

vie for influence

through ideas, visions,

of vital reconstruction

life always demands

when evolution shifts

from environmental degradation,

humans distorted impact,

or economic failings,

this is opportunity

if one commits

intention to transform,

stripping what's unnecessary,

wanting, needing less,

discovering the structure

around soulful joy

then designing innovations.

Train To Nowhere

Train in England with Lake Country hills in the background.

Train To Nowhere

2/22/10

Talking with a buddy

about another friend's plight

thinking only by grace

do I go well,

yet there are differences

as he won't budge

from addictions and patterns

that don't affirm life,

unwilling to self actualize

and create new reality

he blames and denies,

cannot get over hump

of ingrained apathetic inertia

cultivated by television mentality,

being a compliant observer

sedated by smoking pot,

cigarettes, an inactive body,

while age creeps relentlessly,

in essence I'm same,

running various mental routines,

growing older, future uncertain,

no guarantee I'll stand

much longer than anyone

because of fickle life,

not knowing accumulative effect

my past experiences generate

though I can influence,

courageously, rails to ride

on train to nowhere.

Focus

Injured Toucan at animal rescue in Cabuya, Montezuma.

Focus

2/21/10

This is what it takes

to birth things into physicality

whether we're conscious or not

of what is really wanted,

sometimes just running old programs

underneath new revelation and intention

thinking latest dream will happen

from an occasional thought visitation

without making a concentrated effort,

perhaps lulled into euphoric sleep

where our desires are fulfilled

imagining how good it'll feel

when the deed is done,

hearing accolades for it's completion,

though there's no real chance

if constancy of steps falter,

turn into fits and starts,

because any structural discipline weakens

in mind, body, spirit, emotion,

all cylinders firing in sequence

are needed for vibrant manifestation

maintained with self care, honoring

visions of deep soul journey

which rise up inside us,

and if paid attention to

will lead past human pratfalls

knowing obstacles have contrasting message

that in reality point toward

clear focus our destiny demands.

Waiting

My younger brother Keith waiting for a volleyball serve.

Main Beach, Santa Cruz, California

Waiting

2/20/10

Half of life it seems

we spend by anticipating future,

trying to link possibilities together

inside our movie making psyche,

and if predisposed to worry

from societal, genetic induced neurosis

then the lull between imperatives

can be stress filled angst,

running scenarios of worst case

instead of attracting great outcome

because we thought the best,

believed in ourselves and others,

while being positive role model

as vibrant, intelligent, joyful human

so supremely flexible in living

that anything coming into sphere

we accept, learn from, influence,

within cause and effect dance,

using any interim as fodder

for opportunity to deepen 'presence'

one's ability for 'Essence' embodiment

sharing Soul connection with Absolute

in each breath and perception,

perhaps chuckling the unlikely nature

everything in this world exists,

intertwines, appearing separate, yet seamless

when we take pause, reflecting

the perfection of next occurrence,

waiting with sublime good humor.

Teasers

Fog lifting from cliffs, viewed 0n ferry from Orkney Island to Scottish mainland.

Teaser

2/19/10

It's still winter here

though brief warm respite

got me cutting hair,

pulling my motorcycle out

plus dreaming of work

fine weather would allow,

I felt Spring surge

well up inside me

like plum tree buds,

a few in flower

whispering of potential fruit,

and this is me

anticipating a glorious year

with bountiful enriching harvest

even as certain ideas

will miss pollenated manifestation,

waiting for cultivated future

when timing is right

after I've pruned distractions,

hinderances that void fecundity,

the life forging energy

inherent to creative expression

where aspects of self,

both male and female,

combine in Universal synergy

becoming Mystery danced alive,

'I AM' and 'Beloved'

flirting, gyrating to rhythms,

music, teasers, Nature supplies.

Cherish-able Self

My 'pony' during Scotland adventure from Sept. 2006 to Feb. 2007

Cherish-able Self

2/18/10

I smile as I write

thinking finally it is happening,

having come to love myself

for how I show up

as unique vibrant manifested Spirit

within ego called Kevin Spitzer,

who's being drawn toward Life

in myriad ways and interests

after making it through heartache,

hardship, challenge, risk, joy, success,

still able to laugh hardily

at myself and world's debacles,

while deeply appreciating the ride

taken with everyone I know

no matter difficulty of lessons

learned on path to grave,

and this is the crux,

that you, my friends, family,

circled around in transitioning times

when I was stretching, breaking,

struggling to emerge, find Truth

of who I really am,

all the while you whispered

prayers into ether surrounding me

so they entered, awakening soul

asleep to Light 'I AM',

realizing my part in whole

plus responsibility to really embrace,

then share, my cherish-able Self.

Refresh

 Jani's son Luther and I, immediately after giving myself a 'motorcycle helmet' haircut.

St. Agnes, Cornwall, England 2004

Refresh

2/17/10

Humans get into ruts

while I'm no different,

though varying in degree,

depending on latest discipline

if I have it

to apply toward dreams

calling to my soul,

and often around birthday

I take clear stock

of where I'm at,

what needs to change

on this physical plane,

like cropping my hair,

reorganizing, cleaning inside home

inviting brightened energy there

giving me new perspective

with sense of order,

control over outward manifestations,

that kind of matches

my consciousness being restructured

when digesting quantum leap

into unknown personal potential

where major shifts occur

within my mysterious psyche

sparked by grand recognition,

deeper 'real-eye-zed' life purpose

directing journey I'm on,

forever requesting along way

opportunities to refresh myself.

New Openings

Plaza Blanco, Abiquiu, New Mexico

New Openings

2/16/10

Change constantly happens,

it's Nature's reality,

ours as 'co-creators'

gifted choice points

in every moment,

the heart beats

blood is pulsing

breath moves through

mind generates thoughts

body feels sensations

emotions can rise,

fall, depending circumstance,

even when still

equanimity is influenced

by Life's agenda

as Universal Intelligence

prodding unique entity,

tree, fish, human,

dense light matter,

toward evolutionary unknown,

some original experience

yet to awaken

aspect of 'self'

asleep to potential,

one's Sacred Path

only Soul understands,

from illuminated realization

future holds as

new openings today.

Love Light

Sunrise light viewed from the land I live on.

Love Light

2/15/10

Is our only imperative this

from which all goodness springs,

to let soul shine brightly

though it does so naturally

yet is diminished by layers

society begins putting upon us

at moment of birth, naked,

virgin, raw, pure, having forgotten

our origin and true identity

as kinetic Life Force energy,

sparked within Holy Womb's darkness,

becoming unique and special manifestation

'vibrating illumination' as dense matter,

entering world scene of paradox

where only glimpses are dared

toward awakened Divine Universal Intelligence

that permeates all of Creation,

acknowledged when Presence opens doorway

into Great Mystery, revealing wholeness,

exquisitely experienced through teeming diversity

while remembering individual Sacred Path,

your imbedded cellular Essence memory

'real-eye-zed' within cause and effect,

this co-creative relationship called Existence

where all encompassing Truth informs,

clarifies, impetus for Right Action

when dreaming life each moment

respecting heartfelt connection to everything,

sending, guarding, Spirit's love light.

Tests

Costa Rican worker strapped in while painting roof beams.

Anamaya Resort, Montezuma, Costa Rica

Tests

2/13/10

No matter the environment,

whether extraordinary natural beauty

inspiring our soul flight

into remembered Absolute realm,

joining High Consciousness Humans

upon First Peace inquiry

igniting Sacred Path dreaming

with hopes of reverberating,

rippling our noble intentions,

or in busy world

surrounded by financial security,

physical possessions that please

friends who love deeply

plus work that satisfies,

genuinely supporting life endeavors,

partner, family, good causes

while enjoying physical health,

open heart, passionate emotions,

clear mind, vibrant Spirit,

there will come challenges

both large and small

which can disrupt vibrations,

our Divinely connected equanimity,

again allowing ego access

to control thought mechanisms

bringing fear of failure

as infection for protection

believing smallness brings safety,

hoping tests are few.

Slip Through

Last section of Montezuma Falls before stream slips into ocean.

 Montezuma, Costa Rica.

Slip Through

1/12/10

There can be grace

when embodying altered state

that wholeness feels like

after ego making craziness,

being caught in separation,

our unique diverse form

wanting supreme special recognition

thinking we're extraordinarily different

deserving gifts other's don't,

as if our story

is the ultimate Truth,

forgetting this synergistic Creation

the light embedded matter

we are, as One,

born within holy Womb

reminding this shared Existence

brothers and sisters together,

I'm you, you're me,

together with plants, animals

carrying minerals, the Universe,

like holographic small piece

which if expanded upon

shows the integral part

of co-creation we inhabit,

dreaming ourselves into being,

becoming awakened Divine Effect

caused by soul's agreement

to enter physical realm

letting Spirit slip through.

Imagination

Gateway to Celtic inspired chapel. Compton, Surrey, England

Imagination

2/11/10

This is essential ingredient

needed by individuals, nations,

when piercing the dark

with light of understanding,

being able to conceptualize

the awe inspiring expanse

Spirit, as Creation, encompasses

in shared Sacred Dream,

often called hellish existence

if unable to 'realize'

magnitude of inhabited miracle,

it's unbelievably complex diversity

that overwhelms simple reasoning,

mind trying to grasp

what must be felt

from 'presence of being',

while 'opening the gateway'

to melding without boundary

into surrounding 'Life Force',

made manifest by perception

without commentary that limits

all we make up,

can conjure, as co-creators

willing to entertain phenomenon

where anything is possible,

even probable, if envisioned,

enlivened, through creative freedom,

going beyond habitual restrictions

riding spaceship of imagination.

Transmission

In Monterey Bay, at Seabright Beach, Santa Cruz, California.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Transmission

2/10/10

Everyday it's always available,

new information coming in

to be deciphered holistically,

call it constant education

from hard knock school

if forever placing ourselves

in way of lessons

that inhabit risks taken,

their cause and effect,

born from ego desires

or societal norms embraced

without spiritual common sense,

some sort of philosophy,

principles, that sustain Beauty

even as crazy humans

build on shifting sand

of manmade economic models

waves threaten to dash,

now different learning arrives

using 'Self' as receiver

for what's innately true

informed by inner knowing,

'Lead from your soul,

but be unique person.'

centered in 'First Peace',

the vibration that attracts

all you want taught

and manifested this lifetime,

opening to crucial transmission.

From Nowhere

A rose.

From Nowhere

2/9/10

Human beings become hard,

calloused, forgetful of miracle,

cursing their 'dropped call'

flagging 'HD' television picture,

mind, body health souring,

car technology breaking down,

electricity lost from storm,

so many life inconveniences

as if poor victim

to unrelenting painful hardships,

easily found when looking

with poverty stricken eyes

unable to harvest riches

through appreciation of grandeur

in simplest flower, breath,

water, earth, air, fire,

Creation's magical Mystery configurations

transmitted through amazing senses,

our unlikely physical formation

born out uniquely poetic

from norm of diversity,

nothing is the same

when change forever arrives,

each phenomenal step forward

into our unknown future,

even as we're supported

by questionable principled philosophies

that maintain our existence,

entering intelligence from nowhere.

In The Flow

 Wednesday evening summertime sailboat race, across from yacht harbor entrance. 

Walton Lighthouse, Monterey Bay, Santa Cruz, California

In The Flow

2/8/10

Life presents opportunities

for response, reaction,

putting up choices

as mental fodder

that can churn

like treadmill hamster

when deciding direction,

conflict can arise

between brain, body,

creating odd tension,

it's bottled energy

waiting for release

needed when changing

some appropriate aspect

toward what's wanted,

accompanied by peace,

joy, real happiness,

when being engaged

by evolutionary process

which moves ahead

on unique timetable

if we cooperate,

but staying stuck

within expectant hopes

deemed ultimate goal

is forgetting surprise,

unforeseen synchronistic result,

often feels more

in the flow.

Surprise

Bounty of Chantrelle mushrooms from 'walkabout' on the land.

Surprise

2/6/10

Often I get strong impulse

to spontaneously do some activity,

then engage it without inquiry,

following a feeling of sureness

located within my Body/Mind

called 'gut' or 'sacral' area,

so it was yesterday morning

motivated by urge to hike

with Bonnie, while blazing trail

which could become a 'walkabout'

for future participants of workshops,

seminars, or vision quest seekers,

plus neighbors, as moving meditation

into the heart of Nature

that envelopes ridge and valley,

using deer paths to guide

we traversed western sandstone hillside

skirting oaks, dense scotch broom,

until entering forest became inevitable

as if being called forward

by forces exacting our experience

directing our route toward discoveries

of beauty always so original,

and ever changing over years,

where my memory vaguely remembered

the contour from past explorations

though never recollecting a time

when bounty of 'Chantrelle' mushrooms

sparked multiple exclamations of surprise.

Attraction

My girl 'Little Wing' with one of her natural attractors  in life.

Attraction

2/5/10

There are phases in life,

large, small, and sizes between

where certain endeavors are possible

while others find only obstruction,

some believe the stars effect

that it's mapped out perfectly

through aligned conjuncts, and trines

to wisely pay attention toward,

add systems like Human Design,

the Enneagram, Earth Wisdom Teachings,

and they bring different filters

for understanding homo sapiens condition,

in the end, it's mystery,

only to be partially deciphered

by anyone other than us,

each individual who uniquely accesses

sensitive awareness to 'their truth'

of inner workings and direction

which points toward deciding criteria

within moment of personal inquiry,

whether based on intuitive vibrations,

feelings from sacral, or mindfulness

which holds all the territories

defining us as sacred beings

so readings can be taken

naturally through mind, body, spirit,

emotion, to determine next move

gracefully coinciding with past, future,

delivering life attraction we want.

Already Written

Angel with 'Love' emblem beside. One of  four ceiling panels on Celtic inspired chapel.

Compton, Surrey, England

Already Written

2/4/10

What if on grand scale

the tale of humanity's challenge

to rise from great failure

is destined, been previously formulated

by Great Spirit on high,

that our pathway is clear

like Moses parting the sea,

yet it's up to us

for utilizing right place, timing,

while actively playing essential part

which will make scenario real

when living fully each day,

choosing what brings us joy

in new paradigm of living

we just need to do,

continuing on with courage, faith,

lest some lesser fate intervenes,

probably it will for many

much like battlefield 'triage' mentality

where those, unwilling to try,

or unable to make leap

into evolutionary consciousness that arrives

will want to fade away,

afflicted by moral mortal wounding,

with energy and sustenance given

toward those who want recovery,

can let go, heal themselves

from distorted disease of separation

embracing Love's story already written.

More Visions

Statue of sailor across the Golden Gate from San Francisco.

More Visions

2/3/10

I received astrology reading

with 'Astro-cartography' as bonus

from Dan Furst yesterday,

after previous radio interview,

it'd been seven years

since prior 'Vedic' reading,

as always there's excitement

and willingness to open

allowing for dream resonance

to correspond with words

depicting what is favorable

delivered by an 'intuitive'

who understands deeper symbolism

while tapping psychic realm

ably flying with best,

which I love doing

in 'all potential' realm,

letting cords be struck

within my inner knowing

on mythical, archetypal plane

yet grounded in physical,

what's realistic, personally possible,

if I set intention

that ignites determined willingness

toward heroic soul journey

all in greater service

for humanity, and world,

continually gifting myself with

more visions of joy. 

Always New

Winter sunrise and Walton Lighthouse from Seabright Beach, Santa Cruz, Calif.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Always New

2/2/10

Each day holds

our virgin potential

no matter previous

defeat or success,

however we interpret

history of actions

that can change

if story does,

giving different twist

from lessons learned

structuring hero journey

to depict challenges

as tempering fodder

instead of chaos,

existence without meaning,

or failed living

making us flawed

for not attaining

what others have,

envying their abilities

while denigrating ours,

only to create

self fulfilling prophecy

afraid to try,

risk your significance

thinking it's hopeless,

good won't come,

reality is stagnate,

though truth is

Life's always new.

Release Control

Hitting a 'hole' while river rafting the Tuolumne River in California.

(w/ brother Keith, niece Adrienne, and friend Steve Z.)

Release Control

2/1/10

No need, it's futile,

to harness desired outcome,

the one deemed worthy

measured as unbelievably great

in critical mind's eye

unable then to appreciate

any situation's perfect magnificence

for what it is,

with the subtle intricacies

or grand surprise revelations,

either one we miss

when caught in web

of wanting something different,

forgetting adventure we're on

as children curiously playing

with miracle that's everywhere,

full of awe, wonder,

while fluid emotional nature

allows for dynamic range

buoyed in human heart

giving information and direction

toward the underlying purpose

our soul agreed upon

before entering physical world,

this field of dreams

which beckons expansive possibilities,

reminds the True Origin

that birthed unique entity

here to release control.

Soul Allure

Guest viewing  sunset colors over Pacific Ocean from 'infinity pool'.

Anamaya Retreat Center, Montezuma, Costa Rica

Soul Allure

1/30/10

Born pure to this world

the layering of ego begins

from first contact with atmosphere,

light, all around this body,

our vehicle for earthly delights,

and pain, bearing watery emotions

where fiery spirit can dampen

make thoughts swirl in air

confusing us with stimulus galore

delivered by parents, family, peers,

school, church, community, nation, world,

any societal construct we encounter

with messages subtle and bold

which supposedly point to happiness,

at least some life satisfaction

if you get on board,

accept attitudes, images, opinions, beliefs,

of status quo running show,

but underneath teeming civilized propaganda

is the wafting surreal scent

escaping from within burdened living

activating glimpse of intuitive dream,

pieces to holistic rainbow visions

enticing embrace of evolutionary poetics,

their deep, ethereal, cosmic vibrations

so constantly present, invisibly intertwined,

with permeating miraculous Absolute Source,

that we overlook the obvious

until 'soul allure' sparks recognition.