Friday, December 31, 2010

Changing Values

Toasting with a wine glass I caught after accidently breaking it's stem.

Changing Values
12/30/10

It's part of 'Great Turning'
where people stop and reconsider
what's priority in life now,
not just presently this day
but in year, or decade
because importance shifts with age,
often hard for youthful understanding
when looking at elder's choices,
less gregarious perhaps, more focused
toward a few life dreams
instead of many imagined before,
as thoughts around dying legacy
surface to influence energy output,
helping decide worthiness of efforts,
aliveness, any pursuit brings individual
and how community is effected,
remembering there's balance to maintain,
all work and no play
doesn't support one's changing values.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Planting Seeds

My raised garden beds made of old redwood deck boards.

Planting Seeds
12/29/10

Yesterday before the rains came
I worked on garden beds
adding soil, compost with worms,
then sowed chard, beets, carrots,
lettuce, peas, leaving two fallow,
put chicken wire over top
to keep birds, cat out,
guarding potential for the future
and now in new 'den',
the wee trailer transformed from
guest room and Art's quarters,
there's 'little child' curiosity, excitement,
about what will creatively transpire
in this year's coming adventures
born from structure, disciplined strictness,
of continually feeding my soul
by writing in dark morning,
anticipating first light and sunrise
while planting seeds on paper.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

On With It

My evolving 'den' which was used as the 'guest room' in the 8x12 trailer.

On With It
12/28/10

Time to take sharp aim,
direct action toward what calls
deemed important beyond selfish scope
of life's mundane survival efforts,
desire for committed intimate relationship,
or anything else as scapegoat
that serves long held procrastination,
having had writing ideas forever
about stories of future world
which essentially works for everyone,
also commentary on human insanity,
books about acquiring 'soul authority',
'earth wisdom', aimed toward youth,
plus finishing my 'Returners' novel,
designing questionnaires for 'personal diagnosis',
while penning poetry for publication,
including recollections around Spitzer family,
and tales depicting my trail
after getting on with it.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Afterward

My constant companion Wing, at home in the woods.

Afterward
12/27/10

Christmas can stir many emotions
igniting highs of nurturing joy
watching young and old interact,
be enthused, playful, often surprised
by words uttered, affection displayed,
as everyone smiles and laughs,
a peak experience in contrast
to regular less populated days,
where sharing with family, friends,
can be few, far between,
which stands out in hindsight
when thinking about my interactions,
communication, giving, instigated by me,
how little I reach out,
keep updated by frequent contact
with those professing love for,
while living singularly, only animals
are daily companionship to exchange
love for each other afterward.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Here Again

Friends and acquaintances at my February 2007 'farewell' party.
Kintra Community Hall, Isle of Mull, Scotland

Here Again
12/25/10

Another cycle rounds the turn
on straightaway to year's finish
and so much has transpired
as I think of past,
different Christmas holidays over decades
enjoyed with many loved ones,
some now in spirit world
others rarely seen, conversed with,
yet all have imprinted me
leaving mark in joyous heart
from my splendid good fortune
to be born 'Kevin Spitzer'
experiencing brother, sisters, and parents
while growing older, becoming man,
discovering extended family in friends,
acquaintances, girlfriends, wives, mutually blessed
in sharing life's fleeting moments
exchanging gifts of smiles, laughter,
hugs, best wishes here again.

At Peace

Lone sailboat at dusk on Monterey Bay. Seabright Beach, Santa Cruz, California

At Peace
12/24/10

This time of year
provokes most to contemplate
one's place in Universe,
how life's being lived,
what isn't working now,
did in past year,
plus dreams of future,
hopefully through this peering
there comes an understanding
that emotional turmoil informs
about what's greatly treasured,
is the leading thread
to core soul values
underneath distressed ego antics,
wanting, needing energy expression,
bottled up or distorted
from insane societal consumerism
trying to make sense,
recognizing craziness can direct
toward living at peace.

Friday, December 24, 2010

The Dawning

The Sun cresting eastern horizon from my ridge top home through 'dragon's breath'.

The Dawning
12/23/10

Especially during long winter nights
first light takes forever coming,
with more patience for Sun
to peek horizon, reveal brilliance,
so it is with wisdom,
the great lessons we learn
by being with, moving from
personal darkness, less than admirable
ways imbedded in our past
needing essential healing, soul discernment
aware of myriad 'security' threats
which often disrupt status quo,
recognizing change, no matter investment,
pointing toward new surprising direction
born of Unknown, without expectation,
while opening to wide range
of blazing life force energy,
playful, free, creative, vibrant, spirited,
that acknowledges the dawning Infinite.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Ideas

Capitola Wharf and New Brighton Beach 'cement ship' in background pierced by a rainbow.

Ideas
12/22/10

Humans think they know best,
can solve problems at anytime
believing they're masters of destiny,
ably figuring, reconfiguring as needed
though life is magnificently willful,
unpredictable, railing against labels, boxes
trying to pigeonhole omnipotent 'Source',
this 'Force' of omnipresent diversity
that's beyond control, barely manageable,
and only when letting go
of expectations societal norms dictate,
then fresh insights can emerge
original ways of approaching Existence
without binds from traditional perspective,
ingenious thought can become difficult
dodging yesterday's land mine obstacles,
while emotions confuse, then clarify,
shine light on brilliant jewels
waiting in darkness, as ideas.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

End, Beginning

'Lord of the Isles' castle ruins at low tide with rainbow.
Isle of Mull, Scotland

End, Beginning
12/21/10

One of my favorite days,
as Winter Solstice reminds me
that seed of great light
is encased within darkest days,
even as death finds everything,
everyone, life continues on unabated,
so it is with hope,
dreams of future possibilities, potential,
even in most forlorn circumstances
when what's cherished begins disintegrating,
or full out torn asunder,
beneath the rubble are jewels
of lessons bequeathing amazing powers
bringing ability to peer emptiness,
feel unencumbered soul's worthy direction
inspired by world of miracle,
hearing voice of Source guiding,
encouraging, one more step forward,
embracing end, beginning day anew.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Step By Step

The over 5,000 year old legacy of the Callanish Stones in the West Hebrides.
Isle of Lewis, Scotland


Step By Step
12/20/10

It's 'keep going' perseverance
that accomplishes any dream,
whether large, small increments
with rest between sprints
of action or thought,
there's the continual revisiting
which furthers manifestation process,
often a lonely journey
even though 'muse' joins
helping articulate your artistry,
whatever unique creation awaits
one's intention toward legacy,
the beauty we'll leave
when all is done,
until then daily attention
opens our intuitive awareness,
visual, auditory, kinesthetic senses,
inspiring decision making strategy
occurring step by step.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Renewed Alignment

Completing a round of 'tslagi' in my 'medicine wheel'.
(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Renewed Alignment
12/18/10

Life is forever this
in world of change,
as experiences effect growth
while information disrupts peace,
feelings ignite as messenger
for continuing, stopping, adapting,
whichever rings presently true
understanding the temporary nature
of any stand taken,
and there is Essence
at core of 'being'
that is sober witness,
calling 'lost nomad' home
to rediscover the marvel
surrounding one's miraculous Existence,
through awe, wonder, curiosity,
remembering the sacred attributes
endowed in all individuals
when embracing renewed alignment.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Every Path

My 'motorcycle course' in northwest Scotland, Sept. 2006

Every Path
12/16/10

No matter the choices made
putting us on particular course
any life direction can challenge
throwing us into virgin territory
even if similar to prior,
but now older, hopefully wiser,
we adjust differently to situations
depending feelings of comfort, discomfort,
deciding what's acceptable or not,
how messy life can be
before taking stand, saying 'Enough!',
using disruptions as message signal
though interpretatively up for grabs,
wondering if experience enriches soul
supporting movement toward growth, evolution,
rather than emotional roller coaster
blocking access to clear action
on any number of fronts
every path will undoubtedly traverse.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Focused Awareness

Concentrating while using a circular saw on home project.
(photo by Art Durand photography)

Focused Awareness
12/15/10

Consciousness is presence,
what grabs attention
is but object,
appealing to subject's
senses becoming thoughts,
yet there's 'soul'
at our core,
observer behind all
individual ego antics,
everything we value,
judge good, bad ...
it's 'deep seat'
of 'true Self'
living without desire,
need, effort, intent,
simply witnessing mind,
emotions, world, life
that engages Mystery
within focused awareness.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Move Forward

Storm brewing above Monterey Bay, Santa Cruz, California.

Move Forward
12/14/10

There's no other alternative really
when day before went badly
as life served up lemons,
shockingly so in the moment,
of course 'great character builder'
though I have enough already,
it's time to find humor,
make light of 'perfect storm'
that comes every so often
testing my foundational strength, integrity,
the principals I readily espouse
while breathing into what's needed
without blame against self, others,
more like taking 100% responsibility
trusting perfection of 'what is',
knowing lessons will be revealed
bestowing wisdom to balance expense,
efforts, when righting ship's course
so projects can move forward.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

New Creations

Great friend Art Durand ready to leave on adventurous 6 month photographic road trip.

New Creations
12/13/10

Good buddy Art is gone,
off land, out of trailer,
on road to great adventure
inhabiting what's always been dream,
perfect timing for his rhythms,
like magnificent painting, sculpture, music,
or book written by author,
it's the lead up to
actual manifestation that takes time,
stewing in one's poetic juices
while bits, pieces, get organized
in mind, body, heart, soul
becoming a synergistic alchemical mix
that catalyzes energy, musters courage,
clears pathway for 'the muse'
who takes artist beyond reasoning
into realm of synchronistic magic,
miracle, destiny none could predict,
where new creations show up.

Monday, December 13, 2010

So It Is

Road signs in England near my friend Mark Jeffery's home.

So It Is
12/12/10

Life gives me clues
as to what's next,
or ideas for handling
shifts, changes, living offers
in service toward growth,
if I pay attention,
will look for message
within seemingly disparate signs,
sometimes just simple affirmation
bearing grand wise council,
like today on radio
listening Harijiwan Khalsa speak
about kundalini system, chakras,
stating acronym for G.O.D.
being 'Generation, Organization, Destruction'
which startled in simplicity,
a plainly stated equation
of stripped down reality,
so it is, everywhere.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Who Knows

Taking in Monterey Bay at Seabright Beach, Santa Cruz, California.
(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Who Knows
12/10/10

Life's nothing but surprises,
and depending early childhood
plus experiences becoming adult
I can either welcome
or fear what's next,
discerning it's friendly universe
full of magic, miracle,
where things 'work out',
instead of bitter reality
with constant disappointment, sadness,
depressed by world events,
personal striving and loss,
always my personal choice
when entertaining thoughts with
outlook of curiosity, adventure,
upon waking each morning,
yet it takes courage
to embrace daily insecurities,
trusting one's wise soul
who knows, is, secure.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Domain

Tomb slabs for 'knights' buried on the Isle of Iona, Scotland.

Domain
12/9/10

It's not age but wisdom
that make king or queen,
different from knight and lady,
prince, princess in youthful romance,
the 'life territory' to oversee
is sprawling, changing, grandly diverse,
demanding presence, deep compassionate understanding
of one's cause, effect influence,
able to respond as needed
without negative knee jerk reaction
when jumping to sudden conclusions
about interpreted events in kingdom,
where brash declarations create war
within self, allies, those loved,
instead take time, trust process,
listen concerns of those involved,
stay centered, balanced, on purpose,
rule the moment with soul,
love, claim royal heritage as
divine monarch of personal domain.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

I'm Willing

Playing field of the 2010 World Champion San Francisco Giants at AT&T Park.

I'm Willing
12/8/10

In caring for myself daily,
while aware of inner workings
through this practice called 'writing',
there's discernment between 'being' states
and thoughts, feelings inhabiting each,
to some, overboard self absorption
contemplating my belly button infinitude,
yet in hindsight it reveals
choices made on road traveled
where in attempting to rescue
ineptness within life's playing field
I look to extract wisdom,
discover underlying seeds of sanity
based on what 'soul' dictates,
thus garnering essential great understanding
of what's really important here,
now, influencing choices for balance,
vitality, available as wise council
I'm willing to courageously follow.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Paradoxically

Daren Commons and I after work on 3rd story water tower 'top', later 'craned' into place.
Lakeside Organic Farm, Watsonville. 2007

Paradoxically
12/7/10

Intuition runs counter mind's intellect,
often what makes sound reasoning
doesn't manifest in desired results,
overwhelmed by business ... work harder,
faster, continually without taking break,
where actually slowing, contemplating course,
alleviates mistakes, dissolves imagined urgency,
finds graceful path with balance,
a turtle and hare tale,
instead of pressing for answers
being made miserable by indecision,
step back, doing something else
allows for solution to enter,
and within intimate relationship struggles
when one, both, aren't satisfied
it's time to please self,
revisit own individually important pursuits
mysteriously expanding ability for more
appreciation, clarity, love, experiencing values,
paradoxically bringing a couple closer.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Transparent

Clear view while writing from my 'croft' in the little village of Kintra.
Isle of Mull, Scotland

Transparent
12/6/10

I will not withhold
what courses through mind
effecting my heart, soul,
rather greet experiences authentically
revealing this moment's truth
courageously, letting chips fall,
remembering things change constantly,
and I do also
depending health and balance,
that 'choice' is mine
within all life territories,
some I've made badly,
run by fear, protectionism,
thinking safety is ultimate
though it contracts, deadens
attention to moving energies,
inward and outward opportunities
for expanding beyond mundane
through transformation's transparent veil.

Monday, December 6, 2010

When

Scottish hunter from days gone by with his canine companions.

When
12/5/10

It takes courage to act
on what's true for soul,
the intuition feelings point toward
though I often pull trigger
with false bravado as protection
thinking first strike wins fights,
where if not, I'm vulnerable
to mind persuading me otherwise
or heart stops to reconsider
then I'm again in muck,
uncertain, unclear, distracted by circumstance,
with confused energy muddling forth,
I'd much rather make stand
thinking I'm defending vitality, integrity,
even if later shown mistaken,
never so, as teaching experiences
that elucidate bring valued wisdom,
understanding of my makeup, others,
when claiming what's genuine now.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Loose Ends

Weaving loom at Ardalanish Organic Farm.
Isle of Mull, Scotland

Loose Ends
12/4/10

Life's full of them
demanding 'to do' list,
vision board, flow chart
for left brained folk,
in degree everyone is,
there's right side also
bringing in artistic sensibilities
more intuitive through feelings,
each person claims personality
within their unique matrix
combining ego and Soul,
influenced within omnipotent Source
which continually supplies threads
to weave rare tapestry
as 'creator' so original
you'll never be duplicated,
because inhabited 'inner universe'
of past, present, future
bears infinite possibility, potential,
loose ends, imitating stars.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Pace

Scottish 'rush hour' near village of Kintra I called home during fall/winter of 2006/2007.
Isle of Mull, Scotland.

Pace
12/3/10

Everyone has own rhythms,
some fixed, others mutable,
all fluctuating in degree
depending circumstance, emotional state,
past history of response,
people get categorized energetically
slow moving, or quick,
when moving one's body
at work, playing sports,
dancing, or around home,
often bringing interpretive labels
meant to denote intellect,
abilities, internal drive, competence,
from onlooker using filters
of society, family upbringing,
past experiences, becoming judgment
determining attractiveness or not,
forgetting to accept perfect
pace of 'what is'.

Indomitable

Winter view from one of many small chapel graveyards on Isle of Mull, Scotland.

Indomitable
12/1/10

Life force is this
from birth to death
where even our remains
feed next generative cycle,
and supposed 'primitive' societies
understood 'no separation' interconnectedness,
but our modern world
run by 'soulless' mind
makes judgments, distinctions everywhere
that fracture rightful place
of humans in 'hoop',
this 'circle' called co-existence
which needs healing now,
opportunities abound in individuals
for uniting mind, body,
spirit, emotion through love,
joy, beauty, integrated goodness,
then directing influence beyond
'Self' through indomitable 'Soul'.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Diligence

Friend and Scottish storyteller, Scott Corrigan, at old high hill 'dun'.
' Fort' near Kilmartin, Scotland

Diligence
11/30/10

This is persevering attitude
for all life's territories,
it means bringing presence
of 'can, will do'
to essential human needs,
plus inspiring extraneous desires
catalyzing many mysterious ingredients
outside confines of homogenization,
unique to each person
we embody our 'brand',
skills, talents known by,
proud of at death,
because of indomitable effort
we deemed personally important
became pact with 'soul'
where other activities paled,
following thread into Unknown
one foot after another
with diligence beyond measure.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

To Self

A note to self: Connect my Spirit with Earth more often.
(photo by Art Durand Photography)

To Self
11/29/10

I must forever remember
when giving to others,
whether lover, family, friends,
clients, community, or world,
my continuous Earth connection
and 'Divinity of Soul'
intertwined with omnipotent Source
which permeates each breath,
making me more 'Spirit'
than human who struggles
through challenges mind creates,
stories about 'ego' control
activated by mirror reflections
life offers as fodder
when taking things personally,
wishing for different scenarios
that bottle joyful presence,
negates curiosity about Mystery,
constricts 'service' to self.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Another Day

Sunset above my humble home on beautiful tree lined ridge overlooking Soquel, California.
(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Another Day
11/27/10

After Thanksgiving dinner celebrations,
our bowling following breakfast,
then afternoon departure yesterday,
I'm back home, present,
in moment, listening rain,
loving wood stove heat,
my life, Mom, family,
dear friends, neighbors, acquaintances
around world, in town,
and my lover G
who meets me fully,
there's home, animal companions,
land, ancestors, myriad blessings
for having made choices
that delivered me here
as who 'I am',
becoming, being, while disintegrating,
holding onto nothing I
rejoice living another day.

Friday, November 26, 2010

Thankfully

The Spitzer Family in 1959

Thankfully
11/26/10

Preciousness strikes me
when opening heart
to feel love
I have now
for this life,
friends, family, lover,
acquaintances I've known,
my animal companions,
teachers, young, old,
our glorious Earth,
immediate land surroundings,
the trees, birds,
garden, wild growth
surrounding home, shop,
medicine wheel, where
praying for ancestors
Dad is remembered
having passed on,
thankfully Mom's alive.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Up To

Tapestry of vines bearing heart shaped leaves beneath the redwoods next to my home.

Up To
11/24/10

Lately I've been wondering
about my soul's intention
as it's veered about
magnetizing myriad life circumstances,
a path less traveled
that often was disconcerting
for my ego, friends,
family, lovers along way,
with it's stops, starts,
seemingly fractured rhyme, reason,
so distortedly crazy making,
yet, in second half
of this extraordinary adventure
I'm weaving found threads
into tapestry of wisdom,
(entertaining that flattering idea)
seeing the underlying interconnection
infiltrating experiences through trials,
tribulations, discovering what my
soul's been up to.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Variances

Cross country skiing near Inverness, Scotland. February, 2007

Variances
11/23/10

Fall weather
heading winter
brings shifts
in activities,
thought process,
food eaten,
clothes worn,
also potential
for work
that slows
if construction
is profession,
no lament,
I'm thrilled
accepting change,
the opportunities
surrounding creativity
filling mind,
heart, soul,
with variances.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Ingest

My nephew Tyler, turned 5, ready to ingest birthday cake with friends.

Ingest
11/22/10

Conversation around 'chemical attractions'
got me thinking again
about scientists finding particles
plus much space between
that constitute 'physical' reality,
there's also food eaten,
thoughts entertained, exercise regiments,
meditative private practices, love
with it's accordant feelings,
all pumping influence into
our 'sense making' brains
which map the territory
we've experienced, taken in,
promoting dreams of more
whether same, or unique,
all the while witness
to mind, body, spirit,
emotions, magnetizing present choices
of what, when, where,
if, we'll ingest opportunity.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Lost Memories

Photo to remember use of work shop as art studio.

Lost Memories
11/20/10

Are they ever really,
perhaps just misplaced synapse
tucked into gray matter
where sacred remembrances sleep,
special vaults connecting feelings
which become body awareness,
subtle 'inner knowing' sensations
we can't quite place
while it effects attractions,
our intangible guidance system
of intuition, instinct, perception,
still mystery to scientists
but not lovers, poets,
artists who follow threads
invisible, ethereal, yet apparent,
sensed as provocatively real
within imagination sharing space
next to files containing
all life's lost memories.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Kiva Moons

A summer full moon with golden grass, not the green of November's first kiva moon.

Kiva Moons
11/19/10

Advancing weather system heralds
complete 'full' lunar cycle,
accumulated snow to 2500 ft.,
rain for lower elevations,
I hear fire, metal,
interact in Ben Franklin
old wood burning stove,
'Wing' dog breathes contently
warm just feet away,
smiling, writing, drinking tea
my body says 'Yes!'
as mind delights knowing
winter will provide respite
from busy outdoor activities
enabling inner world exploration
in my work shop,
bringing ideas to Earth
and on blank pages
waiting to be filled
during Kiva Moons dreamtime.

Friday, November 19, 2010

In Support

The San Francisco Giants playing defense during their 2010 World Series Champion season.

In Support
11/18/10

Within interdependent world
we meet many
who provide services
for mundane existence,
grocer, policeman, clergy,
every life aspect
has corresponding connection
to others involved,
where all rise
or fall accordingly,
granted in degree
when society fluctuates
economically, politically, militarily,
with repercussions felt
far and wide,
making daily self-care
essential practice so
whenever needed changes
arrive, we're ready
participants in support.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Play Part

'On the job' of remodeled 3 story water tower structure at Lakeside Farm, Watsonville, Ca.

Play Part
11/17/10

If we don't speak up
when life gives the opportunity
to reflect on another's actions,
the effects that ripple out
whether good, bad or indifferent,
then occasion to expand evaporates,
especially when 'on the job'
where delivered doors, assembled poorly,
will be returned as opening
for deeper understandings to come,
a worker can refine abilities
while manager revisits quality control,
I get to discuss integrity,
craftsmanship, with client as assurance
that health of relationship depends
on honesty with full disclosure,
airing out dissatisfaction so expression
might activate growth between participants
who play part in manifestation.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

To Earth

Satellite view of the 'Isle of Mull', Scotland. My home for 5 months, winter of 2006-2007.

To Earth
11/16/10

How is it
humans have forgotten,
taken for granted
life bestowing Mother,
the Divine Feminine
always giving birth,
what keeps us
in our heads,
out of body,
our sacred vessel
filled with Her,
why don't we
walk, have visit,
get in touch,
discover the Mystery,
interconnectedness, and wisdom
She exudes, whispers,
models, waiting our
contact to Earth.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Stealth

My girl 'Wing' fully aware of sights, sounds, and 'smells' on recent walkabout in the woods.

Stealth
11/15/10

To own animal instincts,
one's strength, grace, fierceness
when hunting for authenticity,
fully claiming your responsibility
while hungrily stalking Life,
it's outcome whether success
or failure, depends awareness
on 360 degree surroundings,
every interior/exterior movement,
exercising essential balance, determination,
because 'wounded' won't survive
if unable to act,
pounce boldly for fear
that advance will cripple,
leaving them victim, prey,
incapable of following scented
full aliveness each day,
whereas 'health' bristles vibrancy,
attuned stealth, and power.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Through

I'm a 'Horse in the Clouds' in Chinese Astrology. Seeing a fiery one here galloping into sunset.

Through
11/13/10

It's done deal,
homey knows 'home',
owning my life
like an animal
owns each moment,
movement, itself, environment,
fully in power
to effect surroundings
just by presence,
while stealthily hunting
for distorted beliefs
around living, love,
sentimentality, partnership, promises ...
forget planning future
doesn't matter anymore,
time wasted worrying,
'I'M HERE NOW!',
moving instinctually, boldly,
fiery, fully alive
through mysterious world.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Resurgence

Jen and Dan Grady at beginning of pregnancy.
Their little girl arrived 11/12/10.

Resurgence
11/13/10

Indomitable life carries on,
babies are born daily,
brown, dry Californian soil
sprouts green with rain,
hidden seeds held dormant
turn vibrant, pulse electricity,
even as light shortens,
harvest foretells death cycle
of winter's cold grip,
for some, not others,
either way a precursor
that heralds inevitable spring,
summer, seasons continuing circle,
changing moment to moment,
not to be cursed
but embraced as adventure,
keeping us aware, attentive,
on toes, peering, wondering
what resurgence will arrive.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

No Hold

My hands and interlocked fingers.
(photo by Art Durand Photography)

No Hold
11/12/10

Great pleasure, joy, love,
invariably can hook us,
create desire for more,
a grasping and clinging
which rings death knell
for surprising natural unfoldment,
freedom then gets caged
when trying to reproduce
that which 'once was',
never to be again
always an impossible dream
within ever changing world,
better to be curious,
open to what's next,
emotionally flexible when receiving,
following, sequential virgin moments
without comparison, feeling awe,
wonder, for miraculous adventure
no hold can keep.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Difficulties

Abiquiu Reservoir with 'Ghost Ranch' territory in distance.
Abiquiu, New Mexico

Difficulties
11/11/10

It takes practice
to overcome tendencies,
habits, we've acquired
unbeknownst to us
until relationship mirror
shows shadow side,
or punctures bubble
filled with fear
that entirely coats
our world view,
makes breath hard
thinking of drowning
from encompassing distortion,
we must swim
back to shore,
regain love's footing,
simply, for self,
capably stabilized again
transforming life's difficulties.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Other Side

Tantra statue and Nirvana candles at bedside table.

Other Side
11/10/10

Buddhists talk of duality
overcoming our essential nature
by detaching from mind
that wants to analyze,
judge, find safe ground
to 'know' Dharma control,
an inherently masculine trait
which the feminine disrupts,
thus celibacy to repress
a woman's powerful influence,
leaving love at door
plus desire, authenticity, empathy,
for higher evolutionary consciousness,
though 'All is Tao'
even fear I experience
when vulnerably opening heart
into 'no guaranteed' unknown
feeling male 'life force'
connecting female other side.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Enthusiasm

Excitable, enthusiastic me. Monterey Bay, Santa Cruz. Calif.
(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Enthusiasm
11/9/10

Inspired, possessed by God,
state of impassioned emotion,
transport, elevation of fancy,
exaltation of soul, ecstasy,
(Webster's New International Dictionary)
'Wow! What a sensation!'
and to have that
for yourself, upon awakening,
bringing such 'in-spirit' electricity
out into the world,
breathing, imbibing Divine Life
when participating with others
becomes great human 'communion',
far beyond that marvel
is lovers' intimate intertwining,
sharing individual dreams, visions,
met with unbridled joy,
emotionally, spiritually, physically, mentally,
with 'BIG ENERGY' enthusiasm.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Witnessed

A few of the lucky grandchildren blessed to be witnessed by their Grandma Dorothy.

Witnessed
11/8/10

There's something to this,
studies reveal unhealthy isolation,
that somewhere in humans
communion is essential nature
being we're gregarious species
needing touch, affection, nurturance,
to give, receive, share
intimacy with loved ones,
creating 'heart healthy' life
even though sometimes difficult
with friction of differences,
yet benefits far outweigh
what many deem negative
when navigating emotional waters
in changing relationship currents,
and forgotten is synthesis,
the great catalyzing force
sparking courageous transformation, resurgence,
souls discover when witnessed.