Preparation

Elevating at Seabright Beach, Santa Cruz

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Preparation

7/16/09

Part of the equation

in every aspect of life

are the preliminary steps taken,

often we don't know

how events cultivate experiences

that teach of our resilience

showing what we're made of,

where later down the road

incorporating all we've learned

we see the hidden reasons

for all that's transpired

and the perfection of such,

but it takes a mindset

seeing each moment as a gift

toward evolution of consciousness

so an energized 'presence'

can welcome every worldly effect

as an ally coming home,

raptly listening with compassion

the stories of our humanness,

pouring out the diverse conditions

detailed in history books

trials of present day dramas,

even visions of future deeds,

where there is no separation

nothing can be turned away

it's all preparation for success.

Karmic Unwinding

Backwards flop into Monterey Bay, Seabright Beach, Santa Cruz

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Karmic Unwinding

7/15/09

Last night with Gitanjali

I relaxed, let go,

as she worked magic

in my unseen realms,

though not for her,

described as a ball

knotted with strings attached

so many lingering beliefs

from past lives lived,

and this one also,

especially around relationship issue

viewed as self-love,

self worth, being critical,

hard on myself, unforgiving,

needing a compassionate holding

plus releasing old stories

of how I arrived,

here, in this moment,

with bagful of reasons,

they don't matter now

she counseled at end

saying I must speak

reveal my freedom truth

then I'll be met,

attracting like minded woman

for years of loving, 

creating our karmic unwinding.

Here Goes

Third story of restored/improved water tower project for Repass family

Here Goes

7/14/09

Back to work groove

new jobs calling me

during summer heat spell

while my body aches

sore shoulder and hamstring

but I'll certainly persevere

as I need money

for want of resources

that enable more creativity

in how I live,

what pursuits interest me

which naturally rise up,

perhaps not so someday,

while cherishing the impetus

keeping me at forefront

of my conscious intention

to manifest for effect,

on myself and world,

through each living moment

knowing end will come,

thinking back on this,

those opportunities now gone,

where results will tell

if I stepped up

willfully, to expand myself,

become all I could,

so here goes again.

Being With

At the end of the ridge.

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Being With

7/13/09

Presence is human essence,

to fully embody

on inner, outer plane,

the realm of Mystery

impregnating every existing speck

whether experienced or not

as our 'extended self'

but I often forget,

am overcome by feelings,

what my mind thinks

while dividing this world

into compartments to understand

make the unfathomable simple

put in graspable terms

so to imagine control

thinking I can navigate

my life with power,

which is really possible,

but contrary it seems,

for when 'letting go'

of believing we know

how things 'should' transpire

our influence becomes easier

when effecting course direction

playing with each aspect

arising for purposeful recognition

being with it's dynamics.

Distanced

Kevin at Seabright Beach

(photo by Art Durand Photography)

Distanced

7/11/09

At times I can witness

my self-induced solitary living

by just checking the results,

very few call to invite

asking for participation in fun

or some other social activity,

I'm without an intimate partner

left only to dream possibility

while caught in my importance,

that I'm doing something significant,

even when feeling so alone,

and yes, I have friends,

folks I love to see,

be with, and also acquaintances,

plus a big caring family,

but I don't make contact,

put on celebrations, dinner gatherings,

or ask advice, assistance,

to engage on deeper levels,

instead playing the independent game,

self sustained, insular, not needing

recognition for my self worth,

so occasional pity parties ensue,

though blessings cascade upon me,

pointing to my great desire

for closeness and being included

not distanced from love wanted.

Pull It Off

My 'pony' in Scotland, Sept. 2006

( 1991  BMW K75RT, ex-police motorcycle)

Pull It Off

7/9/09

That's the question

when wondering if

I have stamina,

resource, and inspiration

to make effort

toward any dream

presented as worthy

for physical manifestation,

there are numerous,

coming as ideas,

so many moths

circling bright light

of pure Spirit

embodied in me,

wanting clear recognition,

truth, power within,

as seed potential

creating new direction

effecting my life

and the world

from intentional pursuit,

immense willful commitment,

fueled by emotion,

the good feelings

before, during, after,

sparking desire to

pull it off.

Pushing Limits

Mono Lake, California

Pushing Limits

7/8/09

Dreams, visions, can be big,

filled with details and nuance

some compacted into short time,

no room for odd occurrence

monkey wrench in the works

that stalls or sidetracks project,

if so, then creativity is applied,

greater intention with more action,

time, concentrated peering of future,

what's humanly possible for now

while ready to adjust accordingly

yet still so willfully involved

digging deeper for extra effort,

breathing, taking in needed sustenance

in thought, feeling right timing,

always weighing in for grace

whether personal override snuck in

as a hero move detriment,

or if life is testing,

and playing, for one's recognition

of their power and fecundity

when actively pursuing desired outcome,

a manifestation on physical plane,

influencing potency on cellular level

where standing back and looking,

after deadlines have been met,

shows pushing limits has value.

Easy Grooves

Riding rented Harley Davidson motorcycles  with my brother Dan,

Valley of Fire, near Las Vegas, Nevada

Easy Grooves

7/6/09

Give me two days

opposite my regular structure

and I start morphing

brain, body, into newness,

like having fun socializing

seduces me with stimulation,

where now I wonder

what else to do

that will 'entertain' me,

keep me from commitment

to continue the pursuit

of writing short stories

about how 'future' evolves

from people making changes

when taking the 'programs'

I want to design

as legacy of 'work'

in world, as choice,

after realizing my availability

for 'conciliation and growth',

this is good 'noticing'

but still a decision

must be made within

whether to feed discipline,

or joy, hopefully both,

plus more, when choosing

easy grooves and gracefulness.

Freedom

Celebrating 50 years of living with a 'freedom ride' into England and Scotland

Freedom

7/4/09

Where lays the attraction

for the concept portrayed

behind this overused word,

both negative and positive,

some people hear 'chaos',

'anarchy', that anything goes,

others relate to sovereignty,

power, choosing self determination,

also there's wild abandon

no sense of restriction

being like an animal

following one's pure instinct

letting life unfold accordingly

fiercely unafraid of results

only knowing energy surge

headlong pursuit in direction

toward essential creative stimulation

spurred by hungry desire

or release of confinement,

any domination by others

who restrict our abilities

to play, enjoy life,

be inspired by miracle,

this diverse teeming existence,

while embodying our omnipotence,

connected to all Creation

and it's inherent freedom.

In Alignment

Clan specific Scottish stone wall, near Kintra, Isle of Mull, Scotland

In Alignment

7/2/09

The difference can be stark

between 'dis-ease' and graceful flow,

and yet subtle as well

when tension, stress, comes incrementally

from thoughts harbored seeping out,

once subconscious, now showing symptoms,

pushing buttons, activating old patterns,

plus new ones for attention

as sign that evolution's coming,

or could be, if embraced,

at the time, it's hellish,

with ground beneath me moving

left only to chop wood,

carry water, do my best,

while engaging what I can

loving myself in the process

for my wildly diverse antics,

then finally there is release,

either profoundly direct, or miniscule,

gladly nothing stays the same,

shifts happen just by waiting

though 'letting go' and 'accepting'

accelerates understanding of 'what is'

in natural state strayed from,

vitality and integrity linked together

like vertebra, with other energies,

electrically charged and in alignment.

It's Okay

Heidi and Kevin motorcycling without helmets in Kauai, Hawaii,

 together for Kirsten and Rick's wedding

It's Okay

7/1/09

There's no reason to 

not fully love yourself

 for exactly the way

you're showing up now,

it's about the process,

forget end game conclusion

and what others think,

this we can't control

like so many circumstances,

where effects are made

are within our consciousness

whether fueling a war

or developing  real peace

that illuminates our insides

when pursuing essential understandings,

being attentive to warnings

which show course correction,

the need to re-calibrate,

adjust body, mind, emotion,

so Spirit can guide

back to fully accepting

each naturally occurring nuance

often felt as 'grace'

while discovering more miracle,

our 'Expanded True Nature',

as knowledge that says

"It's okay, enjoy life!"

Thresholds

Low tide walking between islands in Scotland

Thresholds

6/30/09

So many doorways face me

waiting my choice to open

seen more clearly each day,

especially after astrology reading

showing two 'trines' as 'square'

in regards to work, relationship,

personal identity, and home space,

that they're all influenced together,

if one lights, all ignite,

and I received more information

around the woman who fits,

able to be deep, playful,

grounded, while in the stars,

plus my ability to vision,

translate what I see unfold,

innovating a system of transformation

continually transmitting and communicating such

with an aptitude to write,

get published for my thoughts,

all coming as 'Universal' encouragement

to manifest dreams into reality,

tapping into fecundity evolving here,

creating magnificent 'Big Game' life

working with all surface tension

which comes from grand aspirations

such as stepping into unknown,

over thresholds, for spiritual power.

Increments

Bryce Canyon, Utah

Increments

6/29/09

Becoming aware of Self

means studying one's subtleties,

attention on detailed levels

in tune with 'senses',

shifts to body dynamics

through emotional energy surges,

or paralyzing lack of 

when recovering from exertion,

perhaps the mind tires

from running circular track,

thoughts chasing their tail

with same avenue expression

creating suspiciously identical results,

somehow, somewhere, change happens,

we stray from pattern

inadvertently discover new strategy

find different world waiting,

it can seem miraculous

wishing we could replicate

similar evolution in territories

of our unsatisfied life,

then, just from 'wanting',

that creates specific intention,

there comes more experiences

original, rare, and expansive,

which opens up possibilities

showing increments of potential.

Let It Go

Buddha in bamboo grove,

 Kauai, Hawaii

Let It Go

6/28/09

To forgive is divine

washing away any residue

from encounter that's contrary,

different than the expected

or hoped for results,

but mastery takes practice,

releasing act of judging

yourself, or others involved,

while moving the energy

getting trapped by emotions,

first comes clear awareness

an acuity more refined

than daily eye perceptions

being the 'landscape' hides,

moves, confuses, disguises itself,

where plumbing depths matters

plus breadth and length,

becoming familiar with discernment,

using one's body awareness

for recognition of disturbance

anything less than ease,

like anger, fear, sadness

in degrees off center,

trusting perfection of circumstance

embodying all that is

tuned into evolution calling,

I let it go.

Miracle

Winter sunset, looking north from Santa Cruz Lighthouse

Miracle

11/30/01

Some mornings it can't be contained,

thunderbolts burst through fingertips

arms raised to moon, stars, the heavens,

as inhaled breath expands the heart

fills it with joyous ecstasy beyond reason

in surge of present moment realization

that sparks smiling laughter from Abundance,

the epiphany of connection to All as One,

standing boundary-less, dissolved in rapture,

becoming the veil of marriage between

worlds physical and ethereal, united,

in eyes witnessing Life's omnipresence

and one's sudden place in it's river flow,

rising up, through our every action,

whether awake to the Mystery or not,

we are channel for mastery or madness

a liquid energy in jeweled chalice of creation

born new each day from death like slumber

to stir ourselves again into the mixture

while practicing the alchemy of Merlin,

we awaken to God and Goddess inside

each opportunity to heal wounded separation

and melt salve over divisiveness for wholeness,

strengthening the sinew and muscle of cooperation

increasing the web and basket to hold Potential,

the knowledge of miracle in all things done alone or together.