No Control

Diminished castle on the Isle of Mull, Scotland.

No Control

7/6/10

How will it be

later in life, older,

not feeling optimally vibrant

having aches, pains, illness,

where now at 56

when sick I'm miserable,

feeling powerless to effect,

accelerate, my body healing

as brain enters sabbatical,

loses desire for willfulness

to orchestrate time usefully,

instead laying around, sleeping,

exiting this strange world

and it's paradoxical nature

that balances euphoric assimilation

with 'Oneness of Eternity'

alongside smallness when suffering

bodily weakness, diminished, fractured,

realizing I've no control.